Lil Ugly Mane - Hideous Disfigurements lyrics

All they, all they ever see Is hideous disfigurements All they, all they ever see Is hideous disfigurements I done came to this conclusion My decision is i've gotta end it ? ain't a life for me that i can see Hell is where a playas stuck, never free, never leave d**h is my escape and i've been racing to the finish G Jealous, sheisty criminals is all around All these laws is plotting, tell the k**ers not to waste they rounds Lay myself up in the ground Playa went to S and K the other day Bought myself the funeral suit so you ain't gotta worry troop Took a couple pictures with my momma, duke Ain't no sense in making her last image of me dying in my blood and puke Ain't her fault I took that route Everything I learned is from the way i see it: You can't trust your fellow man, the government, or even jesus Rather blow my head to pieces, playa ain't no turning back Sitting in my room I'm mixing pills, don't know how long I'll last Time to grab that baby mac, gonna put my a** to sleep Sweating on the grip i put that burner up on to my cheek Hoping that my nerves are twitching let me squeeze that trigger twice Feeling like a nervous b**h but i just got to roll the dice Take my life, press it to my temple flip the safety and let off a shot Heard a pop, hope to god my pain will stop All they, all they ever see Is hideous disfigurements All they, all they ever see Is hideous disfigurements Flash forward: itching, burning, panic stricken, how the f** Am i still alive i'm feeling horror struck Spinning ? can't see nothing, screaming, i can't hear my voice All i feel is pressure in my brain and all my clothes are moist Fumbled on the ground, twitching all around Spazzing gotta find the strap Gotta put another in my dome before they find my a** I know they heard that buck, know that they called the cops Know my little sisters getting out of school at three o'clock Leaking like a motherf**er, rub my fingers through the bu*ter Drawing shapes, finally find the courage now to touch my face Feeling dizzy, bout to give up on that f**ing gun, probably die from loss of blood How could i have been this dumb? drag myself up off the floor onto the bed I can't believe i let a motherf**ing bullet fly and i ain't even dead Nothing making sense, smash my fist down on my legs Scrape my skin off with my finger nails, b**h I'm in a rage Swinging violent, trying to scream again and all i heard was gurgles Gotta find the burner make my suicide look like a murder Thoughts become erratic as i touch my fingers to my face Try to find my nose but now my features have been replaced Gagging as i'm pulling back a meaty flap In between my eyes is just a greasy mess of tissue with some teeth attached Oozing blood secretes the gash b**hes theres no coming back Weeping through my twisted form i vomit as i fade to black All they, all they ever see Is hideous disfigurements Tried to, tried to buck myself And now I gotta live with it "Picked up the gun and pulled the trigger Survived, but was severely disfigured"