Lil' Tone - To Be Or Not To Be lyrics

This that real sh** Made this for all my kids Goin through tough sh** Just sit, back and listen Alright here we go I was thirteen when it first happened Realization. degenerate havin a regeneration. started rappin Without me, sellin in the street. mommy and me wouldn't have nothin to eat It's cuz of me, not dad, i was the one dealin and sellin crack He was in the back snorted up pills from my vial bag Said what the f** you doin i have to sell that! If not we can't have ramen on the table tonight I guess he was just to high to realize Why did it get this way? do i really have to say? My parents to busy sittin smokin jays While i'm outside i play. don't obey? i get the tray Over my head that's when i pray. that one day. i'll be as big as jay Z, ya see i was only eight. i thought anything was possible But today? i think nothin is possible. everythings impossible Soon my rhymes will just be inaudible. no one will ever see em so Why do i even try? i sit and cry. cuz everything i do just isn't fly enough Hard times in the //chorus Big D Livin in the big D I wanna be big. is it to be or not to be That's the big question Lies. the real big question. is is there a heaven? I think there is cuz i believe in jesus. like most little white kids Only exception is. the only thing that makes me different. i'm stuck on skit I do have fat clips. from rhymin? naw i ain't lyin. it's from sellin sh** But i think i bit. off more than i can chew Sum i can't undo What the f** am i gon do? Damn the agony Always angrily. i think i'll jump off the balcony Then happily live the perfect fantasy Travel the f**in galaxy Ah, the audacity I'm losing my sanity Spittin profanity Is this reality? Or just humanity? Don't ask me I don't f**in know see I just go with the flow and see if the flow k**s me Hard times in the //chorus Big D Livin in the big D I wanna be big. is it to be or not to be It's hard. damn it's hard Every corner you take you see a fence that's barbed Every other corner. you'll see a guard They're armed. all the way up and down Don't make a sound. just walk around Them. don't let them find the hemp You'll be condemned. take all the stems And seeds. no weeds means no moneys They stalk the streets slow and quiet like mummies That's why i do my studies Don't let 'em see me Find the dropoff point and leave sneakily In reality. it's harder than it seems But to me, it's easy, cuz i've been doin this sh** since thirteen To me it's a daily routine Dealer till i die Demand and supply It goes up and down like a roller coaster ride Man this is a hard life Hard times. in the //chorus Big D Livin in the big D I wanna be big. is it to be or not to be I wanna be a star A big ball of fire, see I wanna be a dragon ball. just like in dragon ball z Ya see. i like to sit back, relax listen to rap Not everything is about crack. and Dealin and smokin Stealin and jokin k**in and chokin Everybody croakin cuz i k**ed em Just like dahm k**ed this beat I mean damn, dahm was good to me Kinda makes me forget about. the Hard times. in the //chorus Big D Livin in the big D I wanna be big. is it to be or not to be I don't think it's to be