Lil Kydd - Soliloquy of the Metra lyrics

[Lil Kydd] I don't wear my heart on a sleeve; And my emotions ain't no open book s** it up. You're around your friends so make certain; They don't see the bitter kid sitting behind the crimson curtain They all know you as the positive kid; Glimmer all in his oculars and good nature amid Still a little bit of resentment finds a home in my stomach; I should've brought some swim trunks, a shovel and a bucket With a group of new unfamiliar faces; We exit the railways after depositing our ticket payments Seventy plus degrees and the outing is underway; Steve Jobs in my left ear and the feeling is still staying My hands aching. Don't wanna let them see the hurt; After two of my adolescent years you threw in the dirt I made an effort to clean every cranny and nook; Through the efforts of slow rhythms and stupid catchy hooks But look. A friend speaks and I wipe the wrinkled brow away; I promised moms I wouldn't let what's in the past affect my day Seven hundred and thirty of those and change; I'm not gonna cry about it like a weakling or a lame Cuz I was told that I gotta brave it and fake a happy face; Hopefully the acid in my cavity evaporates Cuz you ain't careful, some girls will make fun of your sour grapes; Decapitate your cardiovascular on a paper plate I'm not gonna try and front like I'm the hardest; But Im'ma bury all my sorrows up inside my art If it dulls the searing flesh and conceals emotional scarring; I'll work myself into the ground right next to where my heart is Snap out of it. Ain't you having a good time? Look into your phone notes and write a couple rhymes Your going to the beach with your crew; So put the smile back on, fake it to make it and hopefully you'll be fine ...And there goes that metra jingle; Put your emotions away, remember that you're single It's a beautiful day; You know you got a lot going for you. So go out and mingle You're a pretty decent package So why'd you leave the house and carry all this extra baggage; How unattractive... The sun beats down Everybody's hot but me and I'm sporting an autumn jacket [Hook] And it's all in the name of getting over you; And all of our mutual friends avoiding me too (x4)