Lil Deezy - Summer night lyrics

{verse 1 } As a man I used to smile to cover emotions As an artist I brag to cover painful moments Your desire can turn into the devil's la**o I'm stuck in a maze, rolling like a desperado They always say that it's bros before hoes But you find out that the hoes are your bros When ''I love you'' is related to vodka bottles And there's as much singles as fake couples We send affection to reasons of our tears Good intention, bad decision: teenage years Impress worthless people with the unnecessary Nothing is promised but a tomb in a cemetery Trade a dream life for the one waiting for you Thank God I found my motivation in a booth My life is squeezed in every one of my quotes But memories are knives; I can't remove from my throat {Chorus} Writing in my summer nights What I live in the winter days... Hoping that my mum's alright To the place where she at today Make sure I keep all my promises But I'm still young gotta learn a lotta sh** (x2) {verse 2 } With my sister at the other side of the world I hope nobody will steal the smile of my little girl You're too young to understand mama's suicide Depression and rental payments ruined a life This ain't only a song but a teenage confession Table full of bills and daddy's antidepressants Love is an illusion, if it is for the need Love is a reality for those who believe A hidden part of me gets bigger in every song In the booth, missed calls from dad on my phone Stressing me, saying don't miss me when I'm gone I felt suicidal, because I was all alone Life was defined when I saw your casket Unconsciously filling a seal, but I cracked it Will I put on my heart hatred barbed wires? Sometimes I feel I stand alone in this choir