Life On Repeat - This Conditioned Lie lyrics

Another night I'm drinking. I search my soul again. But I'm afraid I'm thinking there might not be any left. I pull the pins and needles from underneath my skin. This silence taunts my ego Is it wrong if I forget? How it tasted on my lips and how I wasted so much time on this lie. 'Cause I don't want to be broken and I don't want to feel numb inside. Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie. We've had our eyes shut open But now we've got to just say goodbye. Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie. I'm facing down these demons and I can't let them in. They feed on my depression. Will I soon be one of them? But even if they take me, it wouldn't be as bad as when you left me shaking. Now I fear I can't forget how you tasted on my lips. and how I wasted so much time on this lie. 'Cause I don't want to be broken and I don't want to feel numb inside. Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie. We've had our eyes shut open But now we've got to just say goodbye. Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie. Two liars stuck in a star-crossed gaze, an empty shame. Tragic, we would have rather died to save our faces.