Life Long Tragedy - Collecting Dust lyrics

On track to an early grave And I don't stand a chance against the monsters that my mind creates. I don't want to be here, I just want to be numb Escape the f**ing people that believe in this system. You know they're watching, counting on your mistakes Waiting for failure, can you carry the weight? Once had a future, now I'm watching it die Damn my reflection in the shadows of night. Listen closely, hear this whole world crumbling Slowly breaking patiently dissolving And disgusted with being spoonfed my d**h- I can taste it. f** my soul for collecting dust, I was down and out in the winter months When I lost old friends that I used to trust And left promises out in the rain to rust. Maybe I'm losing control, Cough up my lungs with the cynical The older I get, still can't shake the doubt Still dwell on the sh** that drips out your mouth. So let it be known, Let the f**ing truth be told. You'll do your best to establish a life on someone else's time. Your spirit's only borrowed And all you know, You miss the days when you could've changed old stupid ways And all the stars in your eyes have made it hard To even want to be alive anymore.