Life Lessons - Sleep It Off lyrics

I'm sorry I was angry I had a mindset to defend Getting upset with you Without much cause 'cause I was jealous of your friends It felt right to leave When I doubted everything And when I did I felt defeat I knew I'd lost and I was lost And for the first time I felt like you'd lost interest Skipping contacts in your phone list Pa**ing by my name Cause I'm not someone that you miss You just had to make me miss you didn't you I just had to fall right back And give myself no time to think Before all my emotions get the best of me I'm spitting out teeth Gritted and worn to the point That I don't know what the point is now Now I'm full of what ifs Give me a second to change the subject To something I know I won't forget Because when we talk I can feel discomfort in the vibes that we put off Cut the tension with a knife And tell me if you think that it bleeds 'cause there are parts of me I don't want you to see No I don't want you to This is not The first time I have tried To reason with myself For the cowardly nights I spent wasted Awake always thinking of things that I hate That I could've done different It's me It's always me It's always been me In my head This is what we're supposed to be And I'll accept that this is you If you accept that this is me Sleep it off It wasn't love just a crutch Make sure the door is shut