Libitina - Diomedean Exchange lyrics

I've surrendered so much I've forgotten to live You ask for too much But what do you give? The scales now fall from before my eyes And I can see through your artifice Finally the truth has dawned upon me And with its light I can clearly see That I am alone when I am with you To my feelings I can never be true Seeds of doubt will never bear fruit And so it is our love follows suit I can give no more I need something back And you seem unable to relieve my lack The giving has just been all on one side And no one can tell me I have not tried I see from the past I must cut loose The time of my going I will choose A letting of blood and an end to pain My life in this way I will regain I can't look on you in the same way now Absolutes have turned to relatives And I am consumed by a family of doubts I can hear whispers through the shouts Sounds and tones that, whilst discordant Raise me from my slumber dormant Your fell deeds make a lie of your words To say you love me seems absurd And I will laugh as I have the heart The will to end this and make a new start I can give no more I need something back And you seem unable to relieve my lack The giving has just been all on one side And no one can tell me I have not tried I see from the past I must cut loose The time of my going I will choose A letting of blood and an end to pain My life in this way I will regain Surrounded by lotus But wracked by pain On my waking life it has left its stain While much of my suffering has gone unseen The truth is again that I have been Laid low by the sacrifice I have made for you The help I needed I think you knew Bowed under the yoke A crippling weight These wounds you'll see far too late Sadly I know they'll not go unwept Blame the promises you have not kept