Libitina - Smile Of The Martyr lyrics

And so I'll keep the smile of the martyr Held back for you To shut you out of mind Hiding behind this grinning facade The skeleton smile of my former joy You won't find out how much I feel the hurt That tightens around me and pulls me down The feelings that serve to remind me that I cannot afford to trust you again The smile of the martyr will shut you out There can be no share of the pain for you The smile of the martyr will shut you out You cut the umbilical Now suffer the child I'll wear a crown of thorns upon my head Raise the unholy cross I have to bear My hands free of scars I'll hang by the nails That you've nailed into my vibrant heart Sold for whatever profit you may seek A sacrifice I did not want to make Unlike Him I cannot walk away From this, my Garden of Gethsemane The smile of the martyr will shut you out There can be no share of the pain for you The smile of the martyr will shut you out You cut the umbilical Now suffer the child I'll suffer the lash of the mental whip And the cruel rack of stretching hours alone All done in silence You won't hear me scream I can't let you see the damage done to me I'll close my gouged eyes to your temptation Hide within myself Thoughts of nights past This martyr's smile tells more than you can know Of the pain and pleasure you've put me through