Lewis Cullen - Start the Machine lyrics

[Verse 1] Lookin in the mirror, look at life and what it holds/ Maybe tryta stack some money, get a car, and get a ho/ But where does that all go man? and when do I start grow-in?/ f** this stupid life man, I'm done with all the bullsh**/ (gun shot) But then I leave behind a family, everybody's cryin/ Got my mom inside the funeral home, her heart is f**in dyin/ Buryin a child at the age of merely 20/ And I find it kinda funny, people dyin for the money/ I'm just dyin tryna live, find a purpose in the universe/ Hit the weed I'm gone, seein Mars and even Jupiter/ I wanna live my life, but no desire to defend it/ Lookin at the road ahead, maybe I should end it/ You can call it laziness, I wouldn't disagree/ It's just everything I want is floating right in front of me/ The only little problem is, it's getting outta reach/ So everything I'm learning, I'll reverse it and teach/ [Hook] [Verse 2] I'm hating all this pain and I'm hating all this aching/ I'm hating all these thoughts when my body starts shaking/ Cause every single morning, damn, I wake up depressed/ Cause I'm just another kid that never made it out the nest/ Everybody talks but they're silent when they walk/ Cause they're scared of all the shadows, that'll follow in the dark/ When I count up my scars and my life falls apart/ I guess it's time ta find out who my real friends are/ Do you ever self an*lyze and call yourself a loser?/ And wonder why the people right around you are cooler?/ Maybe it's just me preventing life from being free/ Stuck inside an octogon, 8 walls of disbelief/ Take a dive into my life and tryta tell me what you feel/ Cut the skin to the bone so I know the pain is real/ Reflections of the pictures from the mirror right above/ The moonlight has survived and the sun is showing love/