Lewis Cullen - Loner at Last lyrics

[Verse 1] Walkin on the edge like I don't give a f** about d**h/ Everything I want I swear ta God that there's nothing left/ Doin what we do best, pa**in time until we die Age is just a number, we conform to all the older lives/ Deprivation, layin faded, lookin up at constellations/ Everything is naked, like the way it was created/ Talkin to a ghost, and I asked him how he died/ He doesn't really boast, but he stared into my eyes/ He mimicked every move and when I did my best ta leave/ I noticed that he follows every step and breath I breathe/ The demon is inside, and I did my best ta hide/ But I guess I gotta face it, since it took over my mind/ Nothing is the same, and I know it's such a shame/ You be selling yourself short just ta get a better name/ And the culprit is the fame, you live and die by this game/ And you play it to be sane, in a world full of pain/ [Hook] I'm a loner at last, f** the world I'll watch it pa**/ And once it stops spinning, then I'll finally turn ta ash/ I'm a loner at last/ [Verse 2] I remember bein asked, what the hell I wanna be?/ I said an actor maybe rapper, then they said I had some heavy dreams/ I didn't really care about the things that they would say/ It's just all I really wanted was a person here ta share the pain/ Every night I'm here I'm f**ing scared that I'll never make it/ And I'm shakin in my blanket, while i'm fighting off the desperation/ 57 feet I'm off the ground I'm on a ledge/ If I take a sudden step to my left then I'm surely dead/ Thinkin if I made it, contemplating bringin buddies/ Even though if it was flipped, they wouldn't choose me over money/ And what's the point in livin if the risk is never there?/ I mean conforming to a life where not a single person cares?/ I'd rather be an inside coffin, than a cubicle or office/ Middle finger to the bosses, tellin me ta cut my losses/ Stuck inside a movie, 8mm, it's black and white/ 50-50 roll the dice, will I get ta live tonight?/ [Hook] [Verse 3] Windows up with the radio on, 3am I'm here again/ Destination unknown with the hopes that the road will never end/ You hold me, you mould me, you tryta make a copy/ I wouldn't f**in have it, so the model now is sloppy/ You think you what's best for me, the opposite of ecstacy/ And everything you're doing? is only f**ing stressing me/ I'm ignorant, and different, a loser and a loner/ So just call me what you want, but I'ma start my life all over/