Leonardo's Bride - Forty-One False Starts lyrics

I've been feeling like the old man and the sea, You asked me if I was over it, I'll never be, It's all been torn apart, Forty-one false starts. If I could be so brave, A little lenny bruce, like I didn't care. I'm working on it, I am working, See these hands are so very tired. I feel like such a loser on some dumb crusade. I feel so caught between this whole love and hate thing. So what if I wear a bullseye on my heart, Forty-one false starts. So much is left unsaid. I wanted to clear the air, You said it was perfectly clear. I'm working on it, I am working, See these hands are so very tired.