Lecrae - Wish It Wasn't True lyrics

Uhh, you I, umm, I know I just got out of rehab, but uh, I actually need to be checked back in. Yeah. I didn't think this was gonna happen to me... man... Feel like I'm back in that dark place Somewhere in between a rock and a hard place And I ain't doin nothin' bad, I'm just doin' bad Feelin' empty when I got more than I done ever had So I'ma do what I do best when I feel depressed Go ahead and let my pen bleed out the stress In the margins, me and wifey arguin' I don't remember why, but basically I ain't washin' her in Ephesians 5 She get out of line, I don't show her grace I get a pen and I trace her Now we need an eraser I'm like, God, give me a sermon or a verse Anything to break the curse; I feel like it's getting worse But it's like for every step up in the right direction Come with two swift punches to my midsection I get discouraged and I question is it really worth it Maybe tryin' to change the world isn't really my purpose I wish it wasn't true But it is, though Now the kids know I'm not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though I wish it wasn't true But it's very true And if it's scaring you Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you I can settle and be suburban, put down the Spurgeon Be concerned with keepin' my home furnished Now my fire burns only for my own advancement Forget a pa**ion for the pastors in Sudan The kids in Afghanistan, who be losin' their dads They took a stand, saying that Christ is more than a man Man, I got the blues I ain't got a clue how to get 'em another hue All I wanna do is escape with a cold brew Go to sleep and wake up and pretend that it's all cool I wish it wasn't true But ain't no quick fix on the wish list Trials make you better while they make you sick, yeah I was dyin' to try Now I'm dying from trying Now I'm trying to die To the lies I'm buying I wish it wasn't true But it is, though Now the kids know I'm not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though I wish it wasn't true But it's very true And if it's scaring you Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you How come I wait till I'm downcast and gray Before I think, Lecrae, you may wanna pray You may wanna walk in that library Get one of them commentaries See what them old dudes got to say But it's easy to push play on the YouTube video or the Vimeo Escape from the menial, letting all these subliminal messages Wash me, watch me as I watch these People tell me what I can purchase just to wash these Blues away, functional savior, I'm getting mine It's $19.99 for a limited time Besides, after that I'm sure that I'll be feeling fine - Ok, I'm lying. Really I'm just dying to try. And for the 55th time times 9 I'm disappointed looking for anything but the divine Save me from what I'm feelin' inside, it's like a crime How I end up in the same place every single time (check me in)