Laze - Shadow of a Doubt lyrics

That night in the asylum, rain hit the roof Lightning striking in the sky as I was searching for the truth Ghosts of my past kept creeping Flying in my face keeping me from sleeping Visions of the devil flashed in front of me With each one came a clap of thunder that said it wanted me I said, "Doctor, the sounds are frightening me" He told me, "Calm down. It's just the lightning, G." He must be Satan's helper, I see past the disguise I have 20/20 vision through all of the Doctor's lies I look into my eyes in the mirror on the wall And images of murderers scream out and call ]From beyond the grave, John Wayne Gacy's facing me "Put 'em in the basement" he says, now I'm pacing, G I'm in a locked room and I want to get out Or I'm dead tonight, beyond the shadow of a doubt Midnight struck and I felt out of luck Spirits flew around my room and I was still stuck I couldn't do anything to rid myself of evil My eyes rolled back in my head when I heard people Making noise in the hallway, some sort of ruckus I started banging, "Let me out the door's stuck it's Locked... get me out damn it!" and the lock rattled The door flew open and I laid eyes on the battle Spirits and patients ganging up on the doctors I heard sirens and the sound of a helicopter Us people in the robes fled the premises But the spirits followed us speaking subliminal messages Nowhere to go but the woods Trees talked to us be we stuck together like we should 100 patients strong the night that we got out With each damn tree casting shadows of doubt We bathed in the rain and dried off in the moonlight We'd just as soon fight as lose our human rights But voices from beyond spoke to each of us Telling us to listen because they were teaching us By the break of day we were all on our own But not looking for a telephone or looking for a way home The voices. The voices were my force They told me who to k** and how to feel no remorse I didn't want to do it, I fled But you can't run away from what's inside your head I was tired as hell and I didn't want to take no life But the voices guided me to where to find a knife I picked it up against my own will: no... I can't k**... I can't k**! I can... but still "I want out! I won't do it!" I shout The voices say: "You will." I will Beyond the shadow of a doubt I can't take it no more, the pressure is too much I'm gonna' k** myself before I k** somebody else But the people in my head are no longer just voices They're little tiny beings running and making noises They jump out of my ears and run all over the place I know that they're not real but I feel them on my face Can I get away? Can I leave my mind behind? It's not like in the movies where everyone else is blind They all see me cracking and they all are scared of me And they stare at me, I want to carve them into little pieces, G No, I won't, I get a hold of myself I'm physically strong just have bad mental health I can deal with it, that's my conclusion And before too long I come up with a solution I pour hot acid in my ears to burn the bad thoughts out But they just grow... beyond the shadow of a doubt