Lazarus Blackstar - My Sick Life lyrics

Looking at the pictures in my mind I saw it I knew it was wrong but I chose to ignore it Got one thought left I got one frame of mind I got one good reason to f*ck myself blind A little whisky A little p**n I'm logging on and now the fun has begun I got one chance left I got no friends left And I don't care less And I don't care less I wish I knew How you were feeling I think I know you But you don't know me I wish I knew What you were thinking I think I know you But you don't know me Taken down the pictures of my family I don't want to know them They don't want to know me My girlfriends left She got so upset Cos I wear her dress When I show for the strangers I'm thinking too much And I'm drinking too much Nicotine is a crutch But it helps with the shaking I got one chance left I got no friends left And I don't care less And I don't care less And there's one dance left And my brains a mess And I don't give a f*ck Cos I don't care less I wish I knew How you were feeling I think I know you But you don't know me I wish I knew What you were thinking I think I know you But you don't know me Live in a world of make believe And every day is a fantasy And nobody ever talks to me I don't care cos the only person that matters Is me Everybody is laughing at me Nobody ever talks to me There's nothing left…..I might as well be dead