Lashes - Nate's Song lyrics

Well, the last time I said "I love you," I really didn't mean it at all. It was just a rule. And it's been so long since I've felt true. It's all just stuff that girl, I'm so confused. It's been so long since I've felt real. I forgot how to recognize. The meaning, The meaning, And what I mean when I look in through her eyes. So three days here and three days there, ?? I walk down streets Counting maple leaves, it's all ?? Like a man waking up from being comatose, I took my real first breath of air. I stretched out my legs and I wiggled my toes. I thank God I didn't even care. I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it at all.