L.T.B. - It's Personal lyrics

You keep saying the same thing, never changing When I'm dying, my mind's eye and what my brain sees Has nothing in common with anything I imagined Entering afterlife and witnessing my mind's eye collapsing I'm constantly stalked by the shadow of d**h So I don't have to be walking through a valley to battle my stress These anti-depressants had no effect Until I took the whole bottle and while dying, I say so depressed When the grip on the bottle is irreversible You will hear voices and this here is personal Every single one of those fans must've misheard you The devil writes, wish I'd have never looked in his journal It's just a bunch of plagiarism; they say that it's different But it's the exact same recycled behavior mimic You can't just burn hell to the ground and run away Misery will invite company and everyone will stay Stalked by the shadow of d**h Battle my stress, had no effect Sat so depressed, it's irreversible This here is personal Not trying to get off Scott-free Can't even make the claim that my behavior is not me Don't know how hard I must beg and plead for them to leave These feelings are overwhelming and I cannot breathe It seems like the only way that I could even possibly End this would be for God to come down himself and stop me In my heart I don't want this burden and so it haunts me When you're not on the same page and your actions do all the talking At this point, while I'm writing I don't know what the penalty is When your heart's in a different place and your morals have been deleted Something you would never do happens once and is then repeated I don't know how much of this humanly body you leave with I guarantee you disagree with me as a Christian I'm just begging almighty God for my consciousness to kick in It's like he wants me to hate him purposely give no a**istance We never measure our worth by what it is, just what it isn't God, just either bring me to you or send me to hell Why the hell does this situation keep presenting itself? / You're omnipresent; I don't understand how you can't be nearest Why would I battle rappers when I have to battle lyrics? It seems to me this issue keeps getting uglier My problem says, “I'm not leaving unless you f** me first I know I'm your energy as soon as you are low I'll return, so in other words, I'll see you tomorrow” Stalked by the shadow of d**h Battle my stress, had no effect Sat so depressed, it's irreversible This here is personal So what am I supposed to do, don't you tell me to grow up Cause that tells me, what I'm going through is not something you know of I'm hanging around people, strength I am trying to soak up Paranoia from there being no understanding and no love I really hope those close to me can love me through this If not, I don't feel it necessary to be included That could modify into a shortened life If all is pa**ing away, can any words truly be immortalized? You won't provide me with an opinion that isn't bias No one has a concept of privacy, you should try it Asking personal questions, you must have been excited Promise you I will either stay quiet, lie, or deny it / / I don't know what your level of treatment is But if you get offended, give a f** if you agree with it Not searching for a feminist, I'm looking for a stick to beat her with Feminism can eat a dick Have sensitivity? Then you should be deleting it Before you put in my cd, thinking that it would be legit I didn't call you a f*ggot cause you're gay, it isn't a secret You can be who you are, you don't have to be discreet with it I a**ume at my funeral, or with my will, reading it They won't be surprised to find I have nothing to leave em with My d**h day is coming, when it is time to sign off If / I spent time accumulating possessions then I lost Stalked by the shadow of d**h Battle my stress, had no effect Sat so depressed, it's irreversible This here is personal