L.O.C. - November lyrics

[Chorus: Nick Ray] This time I've been alone They don't really understand me That's alright Take a walk down that avenue Looking for some reason I'm alive Yea, I'm alive [Verse 1: LOC] Yea That day in November Remember there was something different About the way the world turned It was like the planet shifted Underneath my feet I could feel my feet lifted On a level of intense emptiness and a place I've yet to experience Since that day you left me here with it And I've been trying to deal with this on my own But the self-destruction and abuse that comes with losing someone close to you Has been dragging me down to a place that I do not belong And I know giving up isn't the way to go out But I really don't feel that strong It seems so much easier to drown myself and sorrows in alcohol Than deal with this Emptiness A place that won't let me forget And I'm struggling with my lack of sleep It's like a bad dream on constant repeat And I miss you so, it's been too long Felt your presence when I wrote that song And I'm still searching for a trace of the place that you have gone I am...lost [Chorus: Nick Ray] This time I've been alone They don't really understand me That's all right Take a walk down that avenue Looking for some reason I'm alive Yea, I'm alive [Verse 2: LOC] Yea Now that you're missin' All I listen to is The walls and they whisper I see this problem getting deeper But I don't really want to be this low And I don't see any other place I can go But I've tried every outlet that I know And it seems likes an endless piece of my life that I can never control And I haven't really cared about anyone else Or myself or my welfare And I know they say he is probably in a better place Where ever he is up there But they really have no earthly idea What it meant to a 14-year-old kid And I know they tryin' to help out But it's not the support I need to hear I just need to be…me again And break out this shell And reveal my skin But it takes a whole lot of hard work from the inside out to get what I'm battlin' And I'm all torn up inside I can't remembered the last time I cried And I thought that this would pa**, but years keep coming and Years keep flying by And it's still right there Every time I think of you I can't help but stare Into an open space With a blank expression, across my face Just hoping there's another day that I can spend with you Break away from this institute But I'm so caught up with finding myself When I stop to look I never look for you [Chorus: Nick Ray] This time I've been alone They don't really understand me That's all right Take a walk down that avenue Looking for some reason I'm alive Yea, I'm alive [Outro: Nick Ray] Yea I'm alive Yea I'm alive Yea I'm alive Yea I'm alive