Kyle Collins - Red Coat (2012 Version) lyrics

[Chorus] Look I found her Red Coat Look I found her [Verse 1: Sincerely Collins] I'm so sick of wondering why Waking up in these cold sweats Wishing I would just die And why the f** I don't know yet What happened, what happened To the girl who was wearing this red coat She came then, she went now I don't even really know what I live for But I'm living, I'm living And this life gets so vivid When the beast in you becomes vicious 'Cause the woman that you love goes missing Now all I got is this red coat Photographs and this red wine Memories of what used to be And they visit me around bed-time And I hate that, but I love that All I want is our love back One chance in that time machine Don't tell me that 'cause I'd run back Mission Impossible Tryin' find where you went to So many obstacles Can't define what I went through I tried to talk to Dad But I can't do that Because he ain't the same And your brother just told me Think he might know the man to blame And I'll k** him when I see him If I don't k** me first But do I really wanna do that? 'Cause it might make things worse [Chorus With Beat] [Bridge] 20 years No success That would drive you crazy What happened to my liberty Jagged thoughts and a 9 millimeter pistol That would put me out of misery [Verse 2: Sincerely Collins] But if suicide is a trip to Hell And Hell is where i'm at now Then why the Hell would I go to Hell Hell would shoot me just to get out And I trip around that same old block The pain won't stop Tryin' fight these demons And remain on top But I take that walk In the search for your love again Flashbacks become nightmares I see all the blood that you're covered in I won't love again I want love again I want love again I want love again It ain't fair for a young boy To just lose the woman that mothered him He lays back on that sofa Alcohol just smothers him God helped rub it in You know you're in trouble when You're too afraid to feel The cuts don't heal Startin' to bleed I fall into a dream Where I see your eyes And I see your smile And we both say Hi I ain't seen you in a while And you hug me And I squeeze you And I kiss you I hand you your red coat And I tell you that I missed you Seems life ain't just a dream It's all about what you take up Momma's back in my life again It feels so good then I wake up Look I found her... Damn [Chorus With Beat]