Kyle Bent - Childhood lyrics

[Verse 1] My momma told me when I popped out of the womb I was big as a maaa Bruh and ever since two Ive been rolling around like the pigs in the mud My family acknowledged this child was a problem suprised that they still showed me love Yeah and that all continued throughout elementary but man I was young Well listen man once I was two my grandma started bringing me out to the church I guess I was supposed to be christian but those contradiction would make my head hurt I wanted to feel holy spirits, interpretate the tongues and increase my self worth Though no one would answer my questions, I followed tradition and made it all work In my head, but then I turned seven And I just remember my mom bringing me to the library Every two weeks we would get books to read just so I could expand my vocabulary One day I found something I wasn't expecting A book about extra Terrestrial, first hand encounters, etcetera Even gets worst when its labelled true story, sheesh My momma said they ain't exist So the bubble I lived in was suddenly popped I dont know whats real or whats not All I know is deep down that I live in a box Just a young kid tryna figure it out By nine the internet's where I went missing Got s**ed into the global village From researching bout 'luminati to different dimensions, my interest had shifted Tryna find how this all mix with religion Can't find this in none of the scriptures And my momma just say im too gullible, guess thats what happens when you ain't got siblings But still my childhood was ill Just a little confused Had recess with my dudes, them kids on the block everytime we would chill Had conrows, thats the throwback Yeah not many know that I was reckless, I was so bad Had detentions, but had no cla** Hit my momma like sorry to call again Your kids acting out again I dont know what his problem is He been hanging around in the halls again It was fifth grade when I met Blaze We would rap at the churches For a sec we were conscious but back to our nonsense right after the service You'd never know if you just glanced at the surface That I was a kid that was hurting Between searching for purpose, not cursing and tryna be perfect Was tired of working Was tied up in all of society's curses You would never tell Cause that smile it never failed And them eyes ain't never teared I guess Kyle was a man of steel Im surprised that I managed still Because freshmen year It was unforgiven Had copped the freshest pair of some Js That just wasn't real And they snapped a picture Uh that year was a see saw Same year lost my v-card Bus to Boston just to see Tar Homie JL sung on three songs Word to sarubeatz, imma do me First hit song, now they knew me Got on worldstar, got some groupies Oh my god, this the new me Now every girl, every dude in that school knew my name Sheesh, No longer a shadow but rather just getting adjusted to fame Sheesh, my city it loved me, my teachers they loved me, the chicas they loved me Yeah But I still ain't love me, the public ain't know me, nah they just knew of me But whatever, man later that year I hooked up with some seniors Fell in love with a senior I was young, I was eager And in love with her features I got way too deep, my heart broke down to pieces I guess there's a reason for everything Cause though I ain't give her her wedding ring She taught me something no one ever did And thats nothing is gon last forever man Thats the summer that I first heard Ab-Soul He taught me bout dimethyltryptamine I kept listening to control system I can't trust everything on my tv screen Started getting back into them deeper things Tryna find out what the meaning is Started researching ancient knowledge About higher conscience And pineal glands That started a new chapter My book was just getting better I was getting older I was digging deeper I wanted to know all the world's biggest secrets So I started reading bout them psychedelics And I learned it could get rid of all your demons Even meditated almost every second just to understand life and it's deeper meanings I kept pushing limits I was so relentless No one had the answers Had to go and get it They said God's a gift That was never present Back when I was desperate for a clearer message That was all perception Now I know that we all connected But not before after I drank ayahuascha Learned more bout myself than I ever questioned Here's the benediction [Chorus] Woah woah woah woah open ya eyes up Cause we only know what our parents told us, and Im just hoping youll wise up Cause this angry world is just a reflection of everything raging inside us We all got problems, and it's hard to hide em, and they start from childhood