Kt Tunstall - The River lyrics

I'm holding on To something I don't want To hold on to I'm reaching out For something I can't touch Although I know I want to Taking in the scenery You're the ghost in my machinery When I was good as gold I was good as gold Closing off the avenues To places that I never knew And know I'll never know Now I'll never go I listen And I hear you speak Am I missing something? I want to jump into the river Feel it on my skin But the river is rocks And I'm already lost And I know where I've been Oh I know where I've been I feel I'm caught In a beautiful Dream And I'm cold And my heart has told me It's a dark seam Running through the middle of A life that's full of real love And everything is mine Everything is mine I listen And I hear you speak Am I missing something? I want to jump into the river Feel it on my skin But the river is rocks And I'm already lost And I know where I've been Oh I listen And I hear you speak Am I missing something? I want to jump into the river Feel it on my skin But the river is rocks And I'm already lost And I know where I've been Oh I know where I've been Yes I know where I've been