Krucial - Real Mind lyrics

All around, I hear the sound of my dreams crushing Nearly 23, but feel like I've achieved nothing Maybe I spent too much time chilling and weed puffing Or just was unmotivated cuz of mc's mean mugging But please, you got me down on my knees Asking God why these other rappers made it and I couldn't succeed Cuz yo I see alot of mc's who don't got any sk**s But still get record deal strictly for their s** appeal And I feel like I never will, is this how the game works? I guess that I'm not dressed for this sh** and need to change first I need to spit a lame verse about money and women Just so you'd listen, f**, if that's the public opinion Then I don't even wanna make it, I should put my focus elsewhere And if I'd quit this rap sh** I wonder who the hell 'd care I even know some people who'd be happy if I quit it I'm at a point where I'm about to pack my bags at any minute Cuz I'm frustrated, f** waiting, man I've waited long enough This weight on my shoulders is getting heavy, I'm not strong enough Every now and then somebody tells me that I'm dope as f** And I give them a decent smile but inside I'm choking up If I'm that dope, why do I barely have shows and such And some of these other wack cats do even though they s** If this is the way the game goes, then sh**, I'm sick of rap This game is f**ing politics, you gotta be a diplomat So many rappers who be telling me that my sh** is crack But when i ask to spit a track with me, they never hit me back I frequently see them in the streets and then they give me daps But in reality they talk behind my back, that sh** is wack I know I talk alot of sh** when I be spitting raps But I show support to everyone trying to make it and it's a fact And honestly, I feel like that's how it's supposed to be But y'all don't feel the same way, y'all 'd be happy if I don't succeed This game's f**ed up, I might leave it today Cuz I feel like I'm all alone & have no reason to stay I'm walking down a dark road and I'm feeling astray To be honest I don't think I deserve to be treated this way Y'all don't know it but I've been feeling like that a couple years Now I've had it up to here, sh** I'm sad enough to tear You rappers hated on me in the past enough, it's clear That you f*ggot a** ba*tards rather have me disappear f** you! I don't need your support or help I do this for my friends, for my fans but most of all, I do this for myself I wanted to become successful since I was a teen But it seems that sh** was nothing more than just a dream I'm stuck between love and hate Fantasized about a glammour life, now I realise that sh** 's f**ing fake I'm in a rat race surrounded by a bunch of snakes Trying to keep up the pace, my girl telling me I should cut the brakes Cuz she don't want me to come to a stop Cuz she knows how much I love this hip hop Saying that my music is great But wait, then how come that it flopped? I'm confused, don't know in which direction to move Think you do? take a second to step in my shoes There's nothing left to prove, I done lost every hope That's how I feel, this is, the realest I ever wrote