[Verse 1] It all started yesterday, and now I can't think about nothing Is it real, I know this can't be heaven sent Wish I could dream it all away And now all I need is a drug That can help me make it through another day Maybe its just me it won't let me be And I don't really know what it is that keeps bothering me But I'm saying [Hook] (Why me?) I wanna know how it is To see the sun shining even if it isn't (Why me?) I dont wanna know how it is To hear me say it's all love when it isn't (Why me?) I wanna know how it feels To hear you laughing in my ear (Why me?) I don't wanna know how it feels If you didn't cheer How can he handle this... too many damages He hit the nail on the head but never knew right where the hammer was Don't think so loud, don't let them hear you scream Baby it's even bigger than it seems [Verse 2] Now, now, now crazy is an act alike Getting better in the after life or maybe not Maybe I can ask her why the normality pa**ed me by why when I'm a tot Continue to breathe it dependent on people to get my mental state Am I meant for this? The Christian Krizz just have to wait Pictures getting clearer it ain't me in the mirror See its that other n***a only his egos bigger And he'll pull the trigger when I usually hesitate And he'll go on 'em when I'm steadily saying wait Now I'm just a shell of myself I don't want anybody's help Maybe I do maybe I do this for you This is my own hell Is there a bottle some kind type posion that can end it A different god I can pray to Some type of doctor to fix it Maybe it's just me it won't let me be And I'm too helpless, I guess [Hook] [Verse 3] How big is the fight in me Frightfully fighting night to be day I'm wishing that wifey would knife me for spiteful things that I say Excuse me for thinking this way, I'm a little bit pessimistic They sending blessing this way I guess I must of missed 'em See my teary eyes through my Ray-Bans Turning off the world and still looking for some amens The girlies pee-pee when they see me, fans, they dance Look in the mirror wanna see me Here's their chance (Speaking) Hope you like what you see Okay Hope you like what you see Why me Kali Baby Okay