Konvictt The ThrowAway Kid - Such a Wreck lyrics

[Verse: Konvictt] I know you probably don't care But my life right now is no fair Walking around in this cold air At the airport sitting at O'Hare I'm thinking of taking the next plane out this damn place I was placed in Man I wasted so many damn days in, I need to get away, I need a vacation All the fake faces, handshakes, and all the bullcrap that I can't take, I wanna vacate somewhere far But I can't cause I gotta stay for the people that need me to escape Cause I know I got fans that need me everyday to the day they pa** my tapes To the children at a faster rate than it took em' to get hooked on in the first place When I rapped away on YouTube, when I had a little buzz going, little fan base Little canvas I called my notepad, little room, big thoughts Working on my vocab trying to master my flow to a to-tac To the point where I murder anything that I spoke at I wanna thank everyone that took a poke at This career that I chose to go at They thought I would quit, then choke back [Hook x2: Konvictt] I woke up in a sweat (sweat) A pounding on my chest (chest) A nightmare in effect (effect) The darkness overhead (head) This is my life, I'm upset (set) I can not catch my breath (breath) I feel like nothing's left (left) See my life is such a wreck (wreck) [Verse 2: Konvictt] I woke up in a nightmare I try to fight this bright fear I have no light, it's night here I just finished my ninth beer My mind is racing light years I spent most of my nights here I can't get out of this hell hole Come down and see the sight here It's crazy man, I'm losing my abilities Or any sense in me to find ways out my insecurities Now picture this deceptiveness Seven kids forever rich, it's evident this evidence That money don't bring happiness cause out of all those happy kids There's only 'bout a fraction of that actually are having fun I say barely half of them, the other half are miserable Living life, no principles, they hate themselves, they're pissed at you We all live in the twisted truth, I'm sick of it, sick of what I'm drifting through Man I can not understand the sh** I get myself into They don't give a crap about me, f** em', I'ma animal Dismantle like I'm Hannibal, all these f*ggots damn em' all [Bridge x2: Konvictt] They told me, I wouldn't, I couldn't do me But I showed them, I proved them that my soul is still free I wouldn't give up no matter what they all said I did whatever the hell I wanted instead [Hook x2: Konvictt] I woke up in a sweat (sweat) A pounding on my chest (chest) A nightmare in effect (effect) The darkness overhead (head) This is my life, I'm upset (set) I can not catch my breath (breath) I feel like nothing's left (left) See my life is such a wreck (wreck)