Kito Kondowe - Risk (prod. Basquiat) lyrics

[Verse 1] Ever since the day I was four I recall being told for my age I'm mature And i still get praise now though 'm old Informed that I had a wise soul But if im wise then why is it I struggle when tacklin The most basic of human interactions A dumb kid who fears what could happinin When faced with the most mundane of challenges Grade school mantra: think before actin Heavy emphasis on the first half of it And years upon years I've been practicin But that restraint has become self shacklin Least now I've established the cause For fear of my real self getting involved Got a plethora of facades like a deck full of'cards (just a) lame attempt for adjusting the odds I've evolved to be overly cautious And so indirect its obnoxious Ingrained in behavior, to hard to stop it That's why my social life has always been toxic [Bridge] Ah sh** As i stand there scared and powerless That's all I do Stand there pa**ive and cowardice [Verse 2] Risk is monstrously calling me out To take a leap of faith in the canyon of doubt But I feel unprepared for the bout I sit there too frozen to open my mouth This time spent gauging uncertainty Gave cue for insecurities to murder me Nipped the bud to prevent me from flourishing But its grown into more than burden see Stakes mishaps are disastrous On the inside I violently react to it My ego takes a ma**ive hit, my self esteem is fast to dip I'll teach a course in self loathing cause I've mastered it Even though I'm talking with my tongue in cheek Brawling with this struggle isn't fun to me At this rate ill never to live life's luxury Cause this process is far too punishing Biggest mistake was not making to many Only 20, and already thrown away plenty Must retire with the risk averting tendencies And try and make a move while these thoughts still rendering Should embrace mistakes while I'm young Not saying go out there and gamble for fun If i played blackjack Id'e probably win a ton With the way I've been cautiously approaching 21 But that's changing, How much you wanna bet? Cause I'm getting pretty pruney from this pool of regrets I'd try and play it cool till my mentals adept No doubt getting out ‘ll make tremble and sweat But , that first step to growin I know this For good and for bad, I just need to own it Get over my own sh** and see through the bogus And finally explore what the world is beholdin]