Have I been consumed Calculating every move As if I’ve got something more important to prove As if I am someone more important than you Would I do it any different if I could choose It feels so lifeless It feels so numb Achievement Is the d**h of endeavor and birth of disgust This is the trap of having something to live for Everything else feels so lifeless Feels so lifeless Feels so cold and empty here Follow your dreams Abandon your losses No matter what the cost is Disregard your sanity Leave it behind with your friends and family You’re under a spell not in front of a gun Another rat in the race Not fooling anyone [Chorus] When did my body become so heavy When did my actions start effecting so many Through a life of contradictions And a heart of good intentions Will I ever find the balance Between love and competition I’m starting to lose my focus If you’re always pushing forward Unable to see what you’re moving towards This isn’t disease it’s a disorder Ego manifests defense as stubbornness Again and again and again Is it in my head Is it all in my head You’re under a spell not in front of a gun Another rat in the race Not fooling anyone [Chorus] When did my body become so heavy When did my actions start effecting so many Through a life of contradictions And a heart of good intentions Will I ever find the balance Between love and competition I’m starting to lose my focus What once was full is empty now A raging river into a drought The landscapes that were shaped Have been laid to waste What once was full is empty now A raging river into a drought The landscapes that were shaped Are forever etched in the messes we’ve made