King Bandit - Always Remember lyrics

I sit here writing this letter, knowning I should've treated you better. But now it's too late I've sealed my fate, now I wait feeling faint. Knowing I've taken the pill, I feel I've had my fill, I have no will, I had to k**, it was my only bill. I don't know how I should feel, I know this is for real, knowing I'll never heal, and everything seems so teal, spinning on the wheel that is life. now I hold my knife, waiting for them to come for me, run from me.. not so safe around me. I find that all these questions surround me, they have begun to bound me. All the sound I hear in the up and down. And I have found that I am on the mound, searching until I come around. but I didn't, and now it's too late, I sealed my fate. I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL, I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD. They wanted to help me, I woundn't listen, now I am missin' and find myself reminissin', now I am in a bind, lined in the path of the wrath that awaits me. Debates me, will face me, will race me to the end of the tunnel, then I'm picked up in a funnel of nothing, knowing back then I was somthing. At least one thing, then I hear the ring of the bell, wanting to yell, and then I just fell to the depths of hell where I would sell my soul and roll, hoping not to burn, only then could I learn the wake of mistake, that I was only a fake, but instead in the lake of fire I burn, in regret of my ways, lost in the maze, and it all began to haze. I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL, I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD. Why did I swallow the pill? I didn't want this, now I miss it all, I didn't have many flaws, I only broke the laws, and then time would pause. I would eventaully fall, it was too late when I saw the light, if I might come back again, I want to fight to come back again, I want to unpack again, but I lack again. I cannot return, I must sit here and burn, for I have sinned, now and again, I am pinned by the wind that blows in the breeze, the same wind that blows the leaves, it hears my pleas, but knows I must pay the fee, for k**ing me, when I stop feeling me. I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL, I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD. Right before I took it, I might have tried to fight if I only knew, seeing that the only few who do will end up suffering, never forgetting, the nothingness that awaits thee. I am dead now, but I died long before this, trying to ignor this, I wore years ago, I alreay know how low I was to go to the point where I stayed. Then I could feel myself fade, in the wade of the current I rest, waiting for the waves to pull me out the sea, where I will lead myself to the brink of d**h, awaiting my final breath. I HAVE NO WILL, I TOOK THE PILL I HAD TO KILL, I HAD MY FILL, I AM SO MAD AND YET SO SAD. Ten minutes have pa**ed. I am surprised to last this long, finding I am still wrong in my ways, now and forever I will be stuck in the haze. Lost in the maze, still ina daze. I dropped dead, not from a bullet of lead, but from everything I just said, lying a foot from my bed, seeing now everything all red. - and I was right, I do regret, now that I have no soul I feel a pull that is crushing me, burning me, the thing that ends up k**ing me. Allways remember me, not for the times I lied or the way I died, remember the times on the ride then I would arise and surprize all who doubted me. Shouteted for me and would plea for me to be the one who'd they'd see. Always remember, that I wasn't a pretender, but I would surrender. Always remember always remember always remember