Kilila - Who Am I lyrics

[Verse 1: Kilila] Driving in my car, down the boulevard Painting down the train yards, piecing up some freight carts Staying off the radar, and away from home Mom, I'm Chilling with some friends, but not really though You can never read emotions looking really close So I paint and write, just to stay afloat These n***as deal with depression, so they don't really know How to cope with sh**, just take a hit, and let these feelings go But later on, when that feelings gone it keeps coming back Having family issues, and a girl that don't know how to act Fanny packs, Napoleon I'll be happy if you bring it back Just to show how much freaking weight they carry on a strap! Look at that, no... Look at that Why is that n***a so different compared to other cats? Is being different wrong, or is being a basic a** I don't know you tell me, cause I can't find my path! Insecurities ruin me, I'm thinking too deep Hope this used thing, makes me better, changes the new me Improves things, but later down the line It freaking screws me Turns out, these people with the same sh** hardly knew me I thought we had sh** in common, but you have no freaking comment As you stuff G's in your pockets, you try to give me a bargain But I don't want that sh**. All I want is to be friends, with no conflicts But you just tryna sell your weed at the apartments Straight cash, and no deposits Once your in it, man you're locked in Drug dealing you can't stop it Look at me, like man that's nonsense [Bridge: Kilila] Man, that ain't even a word Man, just shut up, and learn I see ya'll flop, when I turn As my CD rotates, and burns I'm that Little n***a Known as the Asian kid first Never was good at piano, but this rapping sh** works [Verse 2: Kilila] Be accepted for who you are, and don't fake it You'll put yourself around a group, that is later mistaken This is victory in the making, you start with the basics I'd rather sample that on a plate, then Acid that's tasteless Pot heads upgraded to Coke, around the trade wins Getting high to the head, screaming "n***a we made it!" You don't relies it, when you're k**ing brain cells I see that you're in pain still You just ease it, with horse pills I'll take you out of that gutter Sister, Mother, and Brother Can't forget about Pops, that's probably my main n***a I'd take a bullet if blucka'd Cause, I love ya [Outro: Kilila] Can't get these demons off my back, that n***a play to much Just saved God under my contacts, I try to keep in touch Just like a Brother, or a Father he just shows me love But like any other person, I don't see him much I'm to caught up in this life I live Remember to pray every night, and sh** Never really was close to him, but Before I die, I wanna know what Love is Before I die, I'd say goodbye to my parents Who Am I? God has the answers... So why, Why am I living this life, without knowing myself I thought I knew me well, but my parents knew my actions when I raised hell I'm a teenager, I'm invincible, I could live by my damn self Later on, I miss Mamas cooking so I crawled back to her shell well... This bullsh** is just part of life This sh** is kinda do or die Asking who are you, but you should ask Who am I?