Kid Rated R - Last Time lyrics

[Verse] Lately I been gainin' respect from people I never got it from While I'm losing respect for those that used to be God to em' Cause as a kid all they ever did was guided us son Down the wrong path, now my uncles caught and they locking him Lifer, and in the streets they throw his name in the dirt My other uncle, rest in peace, they said his name in the church But I ain't make it to that ma** though, out chasing my cash flow But I pray to God this song don't get heard by my Aunts cause' It'll probably break they hearts, or probably make them start What's going on with R, a lot of questions I know my mama understands my eyes, though I deny to her face I hope and pray she understands my lies, my God [Chorus] Do you hear me Moving fast not seeing clearly Doing wrong, are you near me Cause I'm here see, but is this what I've become I do this to get by But say goodbye to what I want This is the last time Even though I said that the last time [Bridge] Oh whoa Oh whoa, oh, oh Oh whoa Oh whoa, oh, whoa [Verse] I ask my Grandma pray for me, but I ain't say why Without a single reply, a tear spilled from her eye I told my Momma, please Momma, don't dig, cause you might find Some stuff that's gonna make it hard to smile, Pac line She finds I lie, it feels like I'm drowning in it And it only cuts me deeper when people say that I'm talented Got dead homies' numbers in my phone I just can't cancel it But if they ever called me from that number would I answer it Is everybody a mess like me Is everyone stressed like me, but give their best like me You know what I had to do to get these fresh Nikes My little cousin say he want grow to be just like me, my God [Chorus] [Verse] I'm only asking for forgiveness, is that asking a lot I'm mean, I deal with what I'm given, I ain't ask for this spot My girl be askin' for a dollar every time that she shop Knowin' exactly what I do, but never ask me to stop I'm in this hotel room, with a couple of my boys and Drunk girls, who could barely hold the noise in How we call this building while we literally destroyin' k**in' themselves and guess who's providin' the poison Dear Momma, how do I steer Momma On the road to success, I'm feeling like a deer Momma Tryna' slow myself down, but only got one gear Momma Though I'm far from where I want to be my heart is Nirvana, I know We throw a bunch of ice in the cross But do it with dirty money, is that a sign that I'm lost But only he that can judge me, is he that can save me And maybe, that's why I'm at these crossroads lately [Chorus]