(darrell scott/tia sillers) She said i'm not pointing fingers And he said yes you are 'cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't If i told you i'd been walking Out in the dark night thinking Would you take as truth this alcholoics word? I can't change what's done is done But i can tell you this Not a day goes by that i don't curse myself and all my sins And i need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying Though i haven't kicked the demons that haunt me I'm trying I'm trying She sat down on the floor And said i wish i was stronger Right now i feel fragile as gla** I want to believe you Believe what's held you has freed you And i hate these doubts that keep on coming back My parents think i'm crazy for staying here this long But there's nothing more i want for us than to prove to them they're wrong I don't want to be afraid, i don't want to think you're lying And though i haven't found the faith yet, that i need I'm trying Oh, i'm trying He asked, do you want me to leave? 'cause if you do, you know i will But she said, much to his disbelief No, i love you still He said i don't know why i've been the fool But i can tell you this Not a day goes by that i don't curse myself and all my sins Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying Said, i haven't been the man i want to be But, i'm trying Oh,i'm trying I'm trying Oh lord, i'm trying