Kelly portis - Torture (Please Help Me...) lyrics

(Verse 1) Where my head be at? Wake up in the mornin' where my dead beat dad? I'm so f**ed up in the mind that I don't care if my heart don't beat that's sad Put down the blunt I picked up the liquor anything to speed the process up quicker I hang wit friends because they my n***as but they don't know my head just got sicker I need help, please someone help me, yellin' to the world but you don't hear me Only time you ever f**in' listen is when I'm puttin' my pain into a rhythm & express it lyrically Broke as f** I can't buy sh**, got a n***a thinkin' that he should die quick Slit wrist in the bathroom it ain't even sad dude what the f** am I waitin' for? They told me if, d**h knocks on my door don't answer it But he's callin' callin' keep callin' callin' left voicemails like "Don't cancel this" It's your time now, you just said how you wanna die now I can take your life right now," & I'm like "How the f** can I possibly leave life now?" Van, Nov, please can you make this pain, stop sh** bout to make my brain, pop, I'm k**in' myself & I can't, stop I looked for God.. & I found the devil We almost made that deal but I knew that contract last forever (Hook) Let me take your soul, let me give you fortune You think you on fire now, I'm bout to have to you scorchin' Yeah have your fun, soon I'ma have mine When I drag you down to my realm & prepare for your torture (Verse 2) Yo Nov real talk.. Take me to church dawg This pain really hurts dawg, my chest ain't got no pulse dawg I'm so gone right now what the f** was I even tryna smoke dawg? This sh** ain't weed this smoke ain't supposed to make me choke dawg Yo Van real talk.. You is like a brother to me Ya fam took me in yo mom forever a 2nd mother to me I need you man.. Please hear me callin' Tears in my eyes this sh** I can't hide no more this sh** is wrong and Everytime a n***a stand up, life come & knock a n***a right back down I try to stay positive & keep my chest up but I'm crackin' now It's like.. I'm crippled can't move, sleep all night in a bad mood Nightmares creepin' when I'm sleepin' sh** it's like a tattoo Cuz the pain is permanent, the devil got the needle & he writin' his signature In the back of my head, sh** am I dead? This sh** that turns you into a k**er One time for my n***as.. Y'all my family & I'm that fallen angel.. So sad to see (Hook) (Outro) I looked for God.. & I found the devil (x4)