Kelley James - Lose A Number lyrics

I watched TV til the sun rose Fell asleep in the same clothes Woke up alone, picked up the phone And called the one I said Id never call again I need to lose a number Someone take my phone away It starts with a little tiny trigger, that sparks an even bigger Memory that rushes over my body, blood begins to simmer My heart beats a little faster, cuz Ive been hurt And now the feelings coming back, and Im looking around Nobody notices now, dont let this happen again How can I be so weak and, hold the phone like Ive done before And know everything Im doing is wrong It gets so bad sometimes, especially after late nights A little drink, feels like Im doing alright Then it hits me, grips me quickly Takes me to that dark place I know, but now I gotta know Just a little more, thinking answers will alleviate the paranoia I hold the phone like Ive done before Still everything Im doing is wrong