Keith Murray - Christina lyrics

I'm always getting sh**ted on son, ain't gonna be no, no different Can you accept me as I am? I ask you or is all the love lost? I need you Can you open your heart to mine and accept me and with my faults During the human course of activity, watch me give me my room I am radiant, give me my space, I am light Verse 1 Yo, 2/27/98 I wrote a check out to H.W. funeral home for my little sister Christina 15 years old damn man this f**in world is so cold 8 months before I had to do three years Coming from the air port my face burning with tears I had this black cloud hovering over me Far back as I can check back down my family tree Its been with me since my first LP 2nd LP I was sittin in court 3rd LP I was trapped in the belly of the beast, guided back to the streets by the power of the mind and positive of thought some say livin is d**h and dying is life I say pray for me that I should be born tonight I remember roaming the streets in those cold winter nights Look at me this is my life Chorus Suddenly my life feels so wrong tell me what the hell is going on Tell me tell me why my life feels so wrong so wrong Tell me what the hell is going on Help me please help me Verse 2 I can't even begin to explain the mental anguish I went through as a child when I heard my pops had pa**ed I went to see him on the sick bed with my grandmother that day I knew it was the last I loved him but I had to grow up without him Over the years I've lived through frustrations and questions In 90' I went to jail as an adolescent Then in 92' my moms had to go back to the essence Got me thinkin about the meaning of my existence (I lost my best friend) I realized the devil was spying on me from a distance He don't want me to receive my blessings he fear me My family suffered more d**hs then the Kennedy's This is real and if you don't believe me ask someone that grew with me Know them and feel my energy Hook Please never fabricated nor duplicated so I ask you Can you open you hearts and minds and receive me with all my faults Can you open your hearts and minds unconditionally to begin to understand my thoughts Verse 3 Hey yo this world is a pool of sharks But I'm the animal right when I stand up for myself and bark And this year I gotta go all out for it I've been hustlin for 13 years, nothin to show for it (I mean nothin) Lookin over my bills damn they eaten me up entertainment task force watchin so what the f** I paid my taxes too f** you and your uncle The laws of nature will see me through And yeah I peep it and naw it ain't no secret How n***as give their word with no intentions to keep it I'm givin you the roots of the real My emotional feelings bi-polar is how I feel but still you turn your back on me like you dont know me or you hate me don't you recognize family when you see me i cut my right arm off for you and this is how you repay me ahh dog you breakin my heart [Chorus]