Kamikaze - Living lyrics

I'm livin today (Chorus-Devin) 1/2x I don't know if it'll be alright, it'll be ok If it'll be alright, it'll be ok If it'll be alright, it'll be ok But I'm living today (Devin) I've been checkin out this reefer 'bout an hour and it sounds so soothin It's kinda hard to write this one and keep the track movin Barbeque with weed and brew is how we usually do it Get it dumpin while we pumpin up some good music Can't afford to lose it, hobbied to a full-time job Keep my track record clean for those who wanna pull my card It's kinda hard on a brotha with the struggle and all But all I can say is just keep hustlin and y'all Got to love it live it, ya can't be in it for nothin Cause there's too many n***as out there who witness this sh** It's not fair Nobody to blame for your misfortune and fame Just tryna' take the right road, please, call Jermaine I've seen rain, but now it's pourin And at least I gotta have a Sweet when I wake in the mornin So let's just all do our thing like an orchestra does Pa** the sh** around so we can all get a buzz (Chorus) (David Banner) I can't blame it on my mama, n***a I knew she was broke No education so she spent the last check on some dope Hovers to John's and my father never seen the funds But I heard he was locked in jail keep his nuts on his tongue Who gives a f**, the government can lick the sweat off my dick They put crack off in the hood and lock us up when we trip A little dough, ask them hoes what they put in here for I heard birds fly through the wind, then they land at your door Hot s** all night until my body gets numb I'm too nervous to relax so I bail when I come Can't get alone with my folks so I dump on them fools Basketball is all they taught a young n***a in school f** your foot, and your basket, you can lick on my balls My school don't have the internet so I stuff crack in my draws And if y'all know a better way, then y'all help me escape From this hell that I live everyday (Chorus) (Kamikaze) Dear Lord, please forgive me, I've sinned against your land I've lived this life so hella trife in this pursuit of loot and fame You saw your child weapin on his knees at night in vein And it's a way from tryna' get off in this game But if it's all the same, can I digress, I've struggled, nonetheless Make my first mistake of learnin how to drink and smoke the cess Did my best to tread water but it was just as I feared At the time I needed friends that was the time they disappeared See I got jeered in every corner, couldn't hang cause I was broke Thought he had a record deal, it seemed to be the runnin joke And it's just enough to drive a soul of man to drink and smoke Just enough to make a college grad go out and sell dope And it was never "how ya doin", never "can I help" "Can I share this wealth", I guess I have to make it by myself Could it be the situation came from dirt that I had done Havin no earthly idea where my next dollar's comin from Didn't give a damn if daddy all alone up in this world Didn't care anotha n***a had helped to feed my baby girl Didn't care that Kamikaze just broke down from all the stress Wasn't there at six that mornin, when my car got reposessed I thought y'all was my homies, but I guess it's just as well You left sho' 'nuff, you're rock bottom and I'm a let y'all burn in hell You're b**hes (Chorus to fade)