Kamikaze CMI - Baby Picture lyrics

(Verse 1) Sometimes I try to stay focus and just meditate but coming so damn close to self medicate and my pace is something like a marathon or race but hopefully Im still around just for my daughter sake and I don't like to prey but I do speak to God Cause I may have it ruff but some got it hard and I would take the charge until I need you like the time when I was in Iraq and living was against the odds you seen my heart and spared my life and when I fell apart you save me twice I understand what Michael Jackson went through in life taking everything he can to go to sleep at night but I am not that type at lease I hope to go and get a gun put it to my head and leave it in a note stress would make a man slit his own throat Would make you walk off a chair hanging by a rope (Chorus) Hanging by a rope or better yet a thread Im so for behind to some so far ahead But I am not afraid Im still right here with you I just hope I be as happy like my baby picture Hanging by a rope or better yet a thread Im so for behind to some so far ahead But I am not afraid Im still right here with you I just hope I be as happy like my baby picture (Verse 2) No Im not gonna Kurt Cobain myself Or Heath Ledger, M.J. Billy Mays myself But Im amazed myself that Im still here And paranoid a little bit like its still near I keep a pistol by my side if I feel fear And keep a few up in the ride with the clips near Get between a b**h thighs Then tell her disappear I know that its more than this Im just trying to see it clear Im just trying to see where this world is gonna take me They told me you believe in GOD, you got to believe there is a Satan The preachers must be mistaken They quoting verses they making This sh** aint making no sense What that f** are y'all saying? You mother f**er are playing Aint no way you kidding me If I close my eyes for good Aint no way you losing sleep So I rather just be with my gun off my safety And try to keep my faith in GOD if you know what Im saying. (Chorus) Hanging by a rope or better yet a thread Im so for behind to some so far ahead But I am not afraid Im still right here with you I just hope I be as happy like my baby picture Hanging by a rope or better yet a thread Im so for behind to some so far ahead But I am not afraid Im still right here with you I just hope I be as happy like my baby picture