Kaiju - Fever Dream lyrics

Trying to peel away the layers trying to figure this out is this what you wanted or are you afraid? What does wisdom look like and how do I be wise? I'm grieving a loss but I'm not sure I know how (to do this) are you afraid of this, and how do you feel now I sincerely hope you're well I open my eyes I see the first rays of light I close them again Lord, teach me to be patient Lord, shepherd me from all sin and Lord, guide me swiftly to her whoever or wherever she is Don't give up on me bring your encouragement swiftly to me please help me to live in your friendship and let the love of my life be the process of coming and seeking and serving and listening and following and loving You God help me not to be lustful God help me not to be prideful and let me not depend on others, and take my eyes off of myself And teach me again to be okay alone and take my eyes off of myself Lord, teach me to be patient Lord, shepherd me from all sin and Lord, guide me swiftly to her whoever or wherever she is Don't give up on me bring your encouragement swiftly to me please and forgive me for trying to heal without You I open my eyes I see the first rays of light I close them again Lord teach me to be patient Lord shepherd me from all sin and Lord guide me swiftly to her, whoever wherever she is God help me not to be prideful, help me to forgive.