[Intro: James Lanning] No I don't believe you All jokes aside I'd die to leave you Heaven knows I tried, Lord knows I tried No I don't believe you Don't act surprised Your words are see through Smell the bleach and lies No I've never known the color of your eyes The color of your eyes [Verse 1: James Lanning] Everything is everything, yea so they tell me Yet anything that ain't myself I been trying to sell me I said it sitting in a cell I won't be the same Then ended up swimming in hell in the freezing rain I swear I barely even felt when the season changed I didn't even know I'd fell til the bleeding came Whoever said that I might be a little jaded Ain't right it's more complicated sh** I might even pray that they wrong I would spend everything night being bitter hating A price that's still inflating sh** I might even pay all day long I been thinking about it all day And I still don't have the answer like I called Sway New lights in the hallway I see the walls but I'm trying to feel'em always I keep on, then sit back, and then fall, but intact Now be strong, don't relax, or be long, you belong I'm sick of feeling like a victim when we both did me wrong sh** hit the ceiling like predicted did you notice me gone? If nothing matters like “Bohemian Rhapsody” Then what the f** I'm mad at? Guess it's me isn't that sh**ty I kicked but miss the habit so don't see me and have pity I sifted splintered gla** for my key in this mad city and [Chorus: James Lanning] It's so cold How you do me like that Yea I wrote you a letter and I called But you ain't write back Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws And you threw it right back Yea you threw it right back Yea you ain't write back Yea I ain't write back (it's so cold) [Verse 2: James Lanning] Whoever said that I might be a little jaded is right I'm steady fading man I'm flying afraid I'm a fall Every regret is just like we just licked the blade of a knife It's in my face and I just lie that I ain't in withdrawal I've been wondering where the days went I see my shape bend and fade on the pavement It's like I'm waiting on arraignment I should of stayed in Hell Gate in the basement But who the f** would want to finish in five minutes? And who the f** you gonna give a call with just nine digits? Realizing this isn't as simple as finding if You're willing to climb bridges or fit in as I didn't And I admitted that I ain't who I wanted to be I only listen to myself with a gun up to me I'm selfish, no I don't give myself nothing for free Said that when we're someone else we'll be something to see [Chorus: James Lanning] It's so cold How you do me like that Yea I wrote you a letter and I called But you ain't write back Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws And you threw it right back Yea you threw it right back Yea you ain't write back Yea I ain't write back, (it's so cold) [Bridge: James Lanning] Your tongue is blind I've seen your smile a thousand times You see me smile come run inside Don't hold me down I drown in highs [Verse 3: James Lanning] I'm too impatient to sit at this show Yea I've yet to try to hide I considered it though They say my mind like a violin that's missing a note I'm either silent or snide or a mix of them both I've been listening close All I hear is the floorboards I could of sworn I was hitting doors with full force I'm bored with performance goodbye horses I'm torn to wait for it or should I force this Walking home from the East Village ready to forfeit I spent years running from it really wandering towards it I'm afraid to be medicated I've tried to ignore sh** I'd hate to celebrate or even kind of endorse it Plus we've seen what they did to Regina, You lost your stomach for months Man they'd just pump her with d** before we'd greet her Man I'd always break down when I'd leave her Staring at her looking for a single piece or a fragment of her demeanor And after we didn't even speak for over a year If we'd meet I had this feeling she'd be holding a mirror I'm near Woodhull every week and become frozen in fear Don't know where I want to be but it's nowhere that here Sincerely if you come in leave the furniture please I'm deciding if I'll even be resigning the lease At least, I have this window for whomever to see Man I'm damn near everything I said I never would be [Chorus: James Lanning] How you do me like that? Yea I wrote you a letter and I called But you ain't write back Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws And you threw it right back So I ain't write back Yea I ain't write back Yea I threw it right back