K.A.A.N. - Lonely lyrics

[Intro] Yeah uh huh lord yeah alright, yeah, huh [Verse 1] I am fatigued I give it my all with my music people do not recognize the pa**ion I have for the craft The effort I'm giving with every line are ridiculous Life has affected my content All of the sins that would sit on my conscience Insecurities that I am possessin' Why is my d**h in the constant obsession I am afflicted Thinking about the life I chose And the path the young n***a moving on And I been down and out Because I was looking for the answer But never really had no questions Tell me that I'm accepted I'm getting sicking tried of rejection I said I can't deal with nonsense The pain been constant And I wish I wasn't this depressed So I can deal with the stress I feel at all times I'm debating what the f** I'mma do with the kid Cos' hope it does weed n***a, I can take the D to the Depths of your soul with the list of my goals That I could never attain and you will take in vain I tried to explain and give you my pain Take a listen to the record and tell me I'm insane With the way I was raised, I swear I've never been trained Prepared to be alone Like a predator tone I've been looking for the meaning of a life With the voice in my head trying get it alright I can never get a light When I felt like I needed it Proceeded with my genius Conceiving this, the meanest sh** You will be of a pain And the sickest n***a that picked up the pen I guess it all depends up on the mood that I'm in And the mindstate in which that I write this Putting my time in I redefine what it means Commended for my dedication You never related, relay all my pain in the pa**ages Written on pages There's really no pages to stretch of the sins Cos' the sinners may say I give you the truth And it's never debated Degraded by hatred And giving your ignorant comment to see full accomplice of reason My love is abolished [Hook] Lawd! I'm writing a story that you couldn't fathom, yeah I'm giving a vision that you could imagine ,yeah Do I wanna live is the question that I been asking All the pain that I put into my lyrics I wonder if anyone can really grasp it, lawd Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis Why am I lonely when people are phony I felt that I needed someone to believe in, lawd! [Verse 2] Tell me that you into real sh** Then take a second and listen you'll feel this As I reminisce on my self-esteem That would evaporate in my adolescence Turned introspected, felt so dejected I should use a noose as a newest necklace I'mma set the scene from my wildest dreams And if I was in ever in a valley of shadow of d**h I wanna be the motherf**er you define the best With the ride to attest releasing all stress I confess that I speak of a life from my view With deceive and disciple With the blood and the pew Stain the white flag you that you use for truces All bets are off, there's no more illusions And anyone wanna get a division is confusing And I really want a n***a I want to infuse them My flows amusin', n***as are so clueless Blind to all facts and don't know where truth is I put it all on wacks and backtrack maneuvers I try to succeed and you a**ociated All my f**ing pain has been deregulated In my isolation, I was hesitating Now I'm terrified and that I will never make it Life is so evasive I could make a statement Now I'mma signify what this sh** really means That's another part that you'll never get Unless I paint a picture you could visualize That was so surprising n***a I comprise it That's the endless sh** for you to realize That I am so lonely I am so lonely I am so lonely Lawd! [Hook]