K.A.A.N. - Tell Me lyrics

[Chorus] I don't think I'll ever be sober Talk about life like it's already over, Lord I don't think I'll ever be sober Talk about life like it's already over, Lord Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified By your destitution, no resolution Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified By your destitution, no resolution Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me I don't think I'll ever be sober Talk about life like it's already over, Lord Yeah, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified By your destitution, no resolution [Verse 1] My darkest secret, my closest friend Is my lonely pen, so let the pain begin Now, we could put it on a page for people to read A make a couple dope lines, you better believe it Never taking it easy, I was trying to appease every solitary soul That would listen to me, but I Realized that it's all fake, not real I figured out people take but never give, and don't nobody give a f** about the truth Or what it means to you, you're barely making it through You was living with a dollar and a dream, plus a miniscule scheme Everything ain't what it seems When I looked in the mirror but couldn't recognize the person I'd become A n***a I despise, but otherwise I'm obliged to describe my demise Surprised a motherf**er didn't make it, he couldn't take it No resignation, his dedication was steady fading But what he facing was so amazing, what you did to phase him A difficult dilemma dependent upon a mental aspect Flow abstract, n***as can't match that, detached to make a fat batch Of the dopeness, a n***a wasn't this real then everybody would notice We live in a world completely a** backwards, at least for the thanks and no please Rankest police yank and murder a young n***a then leave him out on the pavement Debating the basis of all of your hatred I told myself that I would work and never start complaining Can't be complacent, don't seek the fame As I reach the brain let's beseech the cadence I kept aside so I could try to survive And lately I've been getting high for the pain I confide, Lord [Chorus] I wanna make a change but it's never that easy Really hard when you're trying to develop an image and give the people The realest they ever heard Talking poetry in motion, I'm speaking a spoken word, absurd, we differ within the pain and really live in a lie but the sign that I presented was a ridiculous vibe A ride inside of my mind really defines it all, but if you really took a look I know you'd be appalled Now take a step back, no need to relapse, but last week I was fine, I recently relapsed, I've rehashed the issues a n***a never dealt with, I wanna survive, it's like I'm barely alive. I'm lost inside of a typhoon, I'm feeling helpless, I'm so selfish, I've been relentless, defenseless, my independence is not dependent upon the pendent, don't really style, stupid n***as are trending, the records I'm making are colder, December, desegregated, disintegrate, people are never gracious, emaciating, interpretation, my flow is a guillotine, I decapitate it, iregulate it, regurgitation of anything that I was creating, this procrastinator will stay sedated to mask my emotions filling up on a daily, and I couldn't give a f** if a record label paid me, I wanna make a connection to people that is real, give them food for their soul, something that you can feel Imagine the pa**ion of packing a promise but what you are lacking is focus, please don't ever think about distractions and pay attention when a n***a rapping, it's all about the self-preservation, your effort to practice when its time for the lights camera action, lord [Chorus]