K.A.A.N. - Ellie lyrics

[Verse 1] And I just lost my mind I can't believe it All I ever think about is what I'll know I never be I'm having nightmares when I close my eyes of me dead in the street Please let my sacrificial blood drip on this motherf**in beat damn! All I ever wanted was a second, a min to k** it They feeling the realest and the n***as whoever do it I prove it, I'm about to lose it Confusing while pursuing A dream that was unattainable Really wasn't explainable They tell me never take it in vain Not to explain the game Or what it means to go follow a dream I've seen many give up when the road got tough Figure that nobody really gives a f** n***a, what do you expect? respect? You got to understand I'll be coming at your motherf**ing neck And you better to cook a rap But that if you want to make it to the top Realize that the pain don't stop Got to formulate the plot and the plan I'm hoping you understand Your destiny is in the palm of your hand And control the road that you know you wanna play Your focus and dedication will never leave you astray To display the realest of any pa**ion You were never relaxing Asking what it takes to finally get a break The mistake that most people will make Is believing sh** is real when it was actually fake Can I vent upon the page? And try to give you the pain Paint the picture of the problem that resides in the brain With the man that was living with the sanity Is anyone understanding me? Vanity is the curse My happiness is in the hearse I disperse the lyrical content that you converse Immerse inside a verse tell me to depict my hurt But first ima be honest abolishing of any ignorance I'm polishing the flow and demolishing any evidence [?] The truth has been distorted They know it that I'll be peddling and pa**ing my competition Habitual repetition and with the way I k** it They want me to get convicted I bet they start a petition But I built the definition of actual tunnel vision I mention on getting a shot But never the penicillin I'm willing to bust my a** If opportunities are given you gotta be f**ing kidding I'm dying to make a difference, they lying to make a living I can read between the lines in the motherf**in sentence So you are never concern or be preaching within my words Sacrifice or repentance but not internally burn [Hook] Try to make a hit off this [?] that I claim I put my life inside these lyrics hoping that you can see my pain With all this agony I feel, I think that I'm going insane To live forever through the music that's all that I want to attain fu*k ! I guess it all depends on a mindstate that a young motherf**er n***a really in DAMN! (3x) I sit with my thoughts The page and the pen I write about life and how it all ends [Verse 2] I got to take my time, so I can murder your mind To find in the peace, that the n***a never felt But nobody ever helps they can never comprehend The illest of illustration that was given with a pen And the depiction of my vision was given with the description But never a contradiction admitting to my addiction Is only giving me friction, go and get a prescription I know it's not the answer, the last man standing Is the man in the ransom, and mutilate the game Insane like Charles Manson [Finish it this week maybe]