K.A.A.N. - 4for1 lyrics

[Verse 1]​ As a child I dealt with abuse, I'm fusing pain with the mic Felt like the world was on my shoulders, took attempts on my life I understand that isn't healthy Like, how the f** could it help me? Reflecting as an adult and realising I was selfish, but You couldn't tell me no different Try all you want I'm not listening We had no shelter or place we could turn This sh** is routine and the lesson I learned Is keep your mouth shut, the more quiet you are No yelling or screaming inside of the house Cause that wasn't ever allowed See, I wasn't raised to believe I could possibly be anything that I wanted There is no support for the kid with the home that is hectic We were dissented Tell me the way I should go Everything I should already know All the emotions I'm willing to show My adolescence, progression, and growth were stunted So I'm feeling mentally stuck I live on the edge and I don't give a f** A handful of pills, that was never enough The way that I cope with this is living this up But if I recall we had been through it all You n***as are speaking no problems of poverty As if you actually seen it But b**h, when we lived in that trailer we never had nothing but roaches around and we couldn't complain My parents would bicker, it's always the same My mother was picking us up after school We'd be in the back of that old station waggon 96.3 on the radio blastin' Smokey Robinson would have us relaxin' Quiet Storm before we step in the madness All of the peace that we had is now past us Walk in the door but there's yelling and screaming There wasn't a place where I ever felt safe And I couldn't relate to the kids that I saw Cause I felt that they all had it better than me Cause they don't have to deal with the sh** that I deal with I stay in the middle of arguments sh**ting myself and believing this sh** is my fault Every time they would fight it was grief Closing my eyes and my ears in my room When I opened them up, man, that sh** never ceased And I want to be free but there's nowhere to leave I wondered why people keep f**ing with me Cause when I was in school they would tell me I'm slow Cause I never attend anything I was told So they put it on me like that sh** was my fault Cause there couldn't be something that was in the way or the place that I stay Cause I never got help My mother got tired from busting her a** Like, dropping us off and then going to work and then picking us up and then bringing us home To a man that appreciates nothing at all While he burning a cigarette, staining the wall Monday through Saturday crushing us all But gets up on Sunday to go praise the lord But there's [?] in those moments to spare I figured it out, that life isn't fair So do what you can Cause nobody cares It's all about loving the memories that you have made in your happiness while you are here I pray that you live without fear And you never think you're in need of materials just to complete you Cause that is the truth Don't be dependent on things that can dissipate or disappear when you need them the most Lawd! [Verse 2] Look here I've been the man for a while My definitive plan And I'm attentive to my terror lyrics of part too quick Style constipated, I could never give two sh**s Coming through your speaker like you need to go "Who this?" Now you need a n***a that's only giving you elegance I gotta k** 'em, regulator, moving with malevolence I try to paint a positive picture while feeling negative A sedative, I soothe 'em, a**uming that I'm a sinner While sending you serendipity, I live in misery I'm playing Mister Misdemeanour, changing my demeanour Feigning for the fountain of youth I wanted wisdom and truth I know these other mother f**ers try to give an excuse But my style is too loose, prefer to be reclusive I give a simple sentence, serve an angel with acoustics I been showing the way but nobody is tryna follow me Believin' what I'm doing, I'll never make an apology I built the foundation for a f**in' mauseoleum With a citadel and mural like the Roman Colosseum Infiltrated by an infidel, I'll see ya when I see ya Sippin' White Zinfandel I'm a connoisseur and conqueror A commodore with the cadence Occasionally I k** it I'm giving you food for thought, it's enough for a starving village My image you won't acknowledge The mileage up on my brain Time for an all-chain Now pay attention, I switch it Efficiently give a vision The mission is motivated I make it a point, I plan it I done managed to manoeuvre The music is too melodic Don't play it for any novice I'm modest? My n***a, never I focus on getting better Embarra**ing anybody You n***as plotting for profit And politicking with others, evasive is what we are I'm working but never seen It's all a part of the plan There's a method to the madness You'll never understand I can spit it any way that I want But you thought I want the flow they never really noticed When you giving up your time And in your mind you're thinking "Man, I'm just a Diamond in the Ruff" I know it's hard, you're feeling down But when you get above the ground I guarantee that you'll survive with nobody up on your side Whenever you do decide you finally feel alive We in love with the truth, we never telling a lie I promise to give you honesty for the rest of my life [Verse 3] Man, I swear to god I would never give you nothing that was average A young black savage Fast rap ba*tard Either way, you see me as the master Own the plantation, delicious destruction My sh** is salacious Distribute discussions attributing to how I think I can function These guys on the internet think they did something Oh no Time for me to put them in their place, quick Lyrically impeccable, punctually embracive Face to face, your fade, it fades, refrains to fame is fake as f** mistakes that I make I gotta work with that selective amnesia Focus on the text and follow all of the procedures Maybe I'll take a break cause I'm tired I want a breather I know these evil mother f**ers would like to deceive us Jesus, are you dead, or you hear a n***a talking? I been calling you for years but I feel you just ignoring Like telling your secretary, "Jot it down, he's not important Take his name and his number and tell him I'm busy I'll call him when I can If I ever get the chance If he's giving you attitude then just f** him in advance I ain't blowin' him up Cause I know that n***a needed me for forgiveness of his sins He need a pen and wanna run but he dependant on the pain" Cause that's all that he's got man, I know that's the truth Subjecting myself to silent solitude With no silence inside of me, soon to subdue I'm submitting myself when I plummet I pray they put poems inside of my casket My posthumous spirit is piercing my peers Don't adhere to the fear Or the feel like a [?] or peak of a pyramid Pissing on pitiful pions for penance There's plenty pretty petty pressing matters that I know that I need to address My sobrieties First I get I high in excess That don't equal success It just means I feel less than alive I'm surprised I made it as far as I am when I'm lacking a moral compa** Ain't ashamed of my past Still remember when them n***as told me I was trash I wanted to spit a couple of bars, but I'm aware that they would laugh Now I never think about them cause all I did was surpa** them, lawd! [Verse 4] I said I'm tryna make a way I need the world to make a masterpiece The devil's on my a** That dastardly deviant chasin' me Replacing my emotions And motioning t'wards the negative My nepotism never gave I'll never reach the narrative Your neglegence is never neccessary It's nefarious The window's getting smaller Looking down a narrow barrell Bullets flying like an arrow Allocated by your hatred Hindering the possibility to possibly make it Please, when you rise, tell me what the f** you really see I pray that can recognise of my spirituality Hoo! Don't you know fatalities and fallacies are definitely on the way? It's babies k**ing babies basically Cause don't nobody think I know they have secret agendas To generalize a people of colour Formally cover but covet cash and account for a drinking A diamond link And give them all the tools they need to make sure that they cause a stink I try to tell all of my n***as We are an endangered species But am I the only one that sees or actually believes to see this Sick and in my seat I seem to see the seed they planted Plants are thrown out of the window of a moving vehicle I mean I veer and steer A benefit that fear is fabricated Face it Base it in my lease of predjudice and poorer confidence Ignoring the injustice of a judicial system That puts a race of people away at a rate that's faster than rabbits Attack it from the inside, destroy a black family Contra' did a lot of hurt that we have not recovered from the 80's They put d** and guns inside of our communities At least the inner cities to make sure there isn't unity Confusing that you think this isn't a genocide We statistics mother f**er but we in need of some rest And I supply the sentiment if there's actually any left Cause it's either incarceration or seeing an early d**h In the depths of my soul like the test of control like a test I've been tested, they lessen the blow On the spot they align and combine as a full While exposing a posing impressionate person you'd personally With their personal preference No pardon for pa**es presented for people to place an opinion Of pitiful, pungunt, disgusting provisions I need to prepare as I peek with a pair That's my pain and my pa**ion, you cannot compare Is it clear that I'm here? Cause I hear that they heeding my messages Heated with heathens, they heavin' [?] to heat up the block And then chop when they eat up the people They call up the cops But they can't stop the evil There's forces at work that will not embrace change It's insane how they think all black people the same Lawd! [Outro] Eh! 4for1. That's it. T-that's it. Next week we gon' give you 5for1 then the week after that we gonna give you an entire mixtape that's just one f**in' track. That's it (Good work dude.) I appreciate that, I appreciate you recognising all the work. It is a lot of work. It is a lot of work. f**! That's it, 4for1