JVOTI - Nimbus lyrics

[Verse] Shooting by stars I make wishes, Riding away on my nimbus Stuck in my dreams and I pray for escape So for now I just deal with the mischief So many thoughts through my head Asleep so soundly they thought I was dead Got my heart pounding my focus is bouncing I fall through the cloud and I sink like I'm lead Walking around in this deep waking nightmare I just wish that my demons would fight fair Hope that soon I could just live a life where My peace doesn't come with the night air For now my dreams only lie with the pillows Til I forget and I weep like the willows Feel the moonlight on my skin through the windows Relax and just set free the stress of a weirdo Outcast tryna outlast til the sun burst Gotta prove I'm the one first But I'm only onstage when I'm immersed Everyone else isn't concerned Cause my mask strong And I'm afraid that I might not last long So even if this my last night I'm living half pipe dreams til my a** gone I forgot how to breathe like an asthmatic Everyone can agree I'm not as plastic I'm just scared of the world living life is a struggle Love being fourteen and enclosed a bubble I'm tired of being so tired, I'm tired of never being inspired I'm tired of being of a liar, and maybe a writer Tired of being a slave to desire I'm tired cause I am awake while I sleep Eyes wide open in my dreams I'm outspoken throw my words to the breeze Tired of fighting this disease Normality is too much And I've been played for a fool but There's not much I can ask for I go crazy when you wrap your Arms around my chest and hold my tight, Dearly I think that I'll be safe if for the night, Clearly And I'm nearly past my fears But won't test the theory and get laughter tracks I escape away in my sleep too much But at least I mastered that Gotta think about it on an after fact And read a chapter back Fall through the cracks of clouds If you try to ride with a disastrous task So crash into the ground or take off the mask you're wearing You can care enough or care to much and then it's overbearing