Jus Daze - Andy Dufresne lyrics

I have memories that hurt my stomach when I think about 'em Thoughts that make me more afraid than horrors that I've seen My reality is worse than your nightmare Right, like you even give a slight care I become alive in the night, yeah, with sh** that haunts my mind And makes my gut twist, I tuck lips 'Cause music moves my soul and lyrics touch my heart And sew me together when my emotions tear me apart It takes me places that I've never been and I'm bound to go And people who impose are only hindering their own Believe in me when I'm nothing and you'll be there when I'm something In a field of dreams where when it rains, it pours, I'm sunken I hate the hate, but without the hate, then I'm nothing The same ones that pull your card are the same ones bluffing And old girls that wouldn't date you now are blushing It's absolute time for me to crunch in sponsored links And as far as time goes, make sure you own yours Or reluctantly have not enough to be successful or too much of it We love having s** but hate loving And problems are the answers depending what you take from it See, I find it a compliment when people with accomplishments Start popping sh** about your confidence And when you drop a hit, sh**, they don't acknowledge it 'Cause pride's a thick ball of snottiness to be swallowing Yet someone whose buzzing moderate, they'll let rock a set And that's because they're comfortable given chances to those who are not a threat But me, I walk twice as hard to earn respect Literally in steps and in heart that I invest I'm not claiming to be the best, I just got a story to tell With half an image that sells and the other half that propels Me to new heights, that's why when I write, I reach a new nice And gain fame off my life where I pay a price 'Cause I've had hard days when work s**s and I wanna snap That's called real life 'cause in reality I wanna rap But I'm a working man, facts earning meals without snacks Trying to reach my goals, defending my post without kicking back So it's hard not to react when every kid that I pa** Taps his mom and he asks why does walk like that Looking back, d you know what that makes me feel inside? To be alive on stage, yet wanna be concealed and hide? It's like being speared alive and being looked in the eyes While you're dying with disgrace as if you kneeled and died Why is mediocrity being oversold And nobody cares about a quiet man holding gold? Staying humble and taking small steps proves my point That in time you'll never be overhyped and disappoint Like most, and be considered another lame If the rules don't apply to you, then reinvent the game At times I have quiet reminders that I'm sane And no matter what they say, there's no reason for me to change 'Cause I've already changed others through myself So if I change what changes others, how does changing that help? I feel the wave of staying current and creating stability But the wind blows whatever direction, regardless if they feeling me 'Cause no matter what, in due time, most of them are k**ing me The spotlight loses watts before it does the MC 'Cause the spotlight loses watts before it does the MC 'Cause the spotlight loses watts before it does the MC