Jurrivh - Myself lyrics

[Verse 1] Go and k** yourself, that's what they told me You're not worth it, your music's sh** Tried the best I could but I just couldn't Lost it all and how the f** I'm still here Is beyond me cause all I ever do is think Drink a lot and jump on a track and think Write and I think but I just don't think I overthink so badly that I lose myself Break myself tryna lose myself Lose myself even more tryna find myself Girls f**ing hate me even though I be myself What I do and what I am is never enough They all say it's my fault and it's tough Told me to get a grip when I tried to take my life Battling haters, doubters, anxiety, depression Alcohol, sadness, I'm feeling empty Feeling lonely, tryna figure out if this is worth it Is it worth it? Do I go and fight another day Or do I park here and go for round three? Wait, where's the f**ing tablets?! They don't care about me and that's clear I get that but all I wanna really do is be me Show the world that I'm a writer A rapper, fair enough it's a mismatch 5 foot 10, 10 stone kid white from Newcastle tryna make it My hometown won't touch me, that's okay Worldwide love, that's even better What if I left here and left an open letter Just give me space, I just need to breathe The time will come I'll leave, ahh [Verse 2] I'm running, but what am I running from? My fears? My past? My mistakes? Myself? It doesn't add up cause I don't know myself Do I give it all I've got or give it all up Stop here and watch my team feel let down See the disappointment in their eyes when I give it all up I don't wanna give up, cause this is my dream Every time I walk out and I see the bleam See all the people chanting my name Yeah it shows a brand new flame But I can feel the flame slowly burning out I don't have the energy like I used to Dealing with more sh** than you could possibly imagine [Verse 3] Ryan's had my back since the first day Was always there without the pay I overdosed, but it wasn't for f**ing sympathy What do people not get? I was down Down in the gutter, down and out, down in the dumps Fighting my way out a never ending story A never ending fight I wish would end Couldn't see straight, just needed a friend But they didn't give two f**s then Ryan Threw the rope down in the deep hole I was in Helped me back out the hole and back to my feet Threw me in the studio with my old lyrics Couldn't thank him enough, or my fam I fought my demons and k**ed most of 'em I know they're there and they always will be But I'm ready for the fight I can do it, I've came so far, it feels right [Verse 4] No matter what happens you can do this They will always be people that hate you Doubt you, and make sure you feel like sh** But I'm here to tell you that you ain't sh** We all have flaws but an imperfection is what Makes us perfect and makes us different I learned now what it takes to be myself You can be yourself, don't follow what they say Follow what your heart says and where it takes you I was an underdog that should of never made it this far So if I can prove them wrong, so can you Keep fighting till you can't fight no more You got this, I believe in you