Jurel, The Deity - Sad. lyrics

Just this life.... I hate this life Many tears lost, Pain no gain This is rage, incarnate In a hopeless stage, I will sulk in shame I am not the same, I have lost my ways I'm broken like my torso is, Heart replaced with a void vortex I'm a shooken mofo, brother Couldn't give a f** if I died tonight, It beats complicated love... I wanna die, I wanna cry.... I wanna cry and so I cry.... out Step one, I drink and drink, Pour it down the throat of a hopeless man Step two, I might blow out my brain.... But maybe she would just shake and shake What brought me to these f**ed up days? How did I deserve anything that happened to come my way? I wanna go back in time and change my fate, one day And meet the girl of my dreams, Under different circumstances Ones where we're not so defensive Words hurt more than any piercing Pierce my heart with fancy sentence Sentence me to life in prison Better than this damn torturing.... Six inner, sick sinner...(He is a.... He is a....) (Triple) (THAT) Six inner (WITHIN HIM), sick sinner... Trigger me, bitter me could not be functioning Under the heartlessness is where the darkness is Abyss in my soul, and devoid is my heart Gravitational phobia with spark When I look to the skies and see nothing but lies Nothing but eyes with no hope inside But try to see past the bad and be glad 'fore the mad, but look, no alas the anger is back But to look past the past, I have to push past the sad.... And that is just tragic How the fu*k I'm supposed to just keep moving Sometimes I wonder how you do it, heh, truly (You just don't know the half... You just don't know the half...) My love.... You got that My side.... You got that My attention.... You earned that Personality.... Def' got that So How'm I supposed to act like you ain't just one of a kind? How can I just act like I can push you aside? I ain't.... I ain't mad I.... I ain't mad.....