Julien Baker - Ringside lyrics

(live version) Beat myself till I'm bloody And I'll give you a ringside seat You say that it's embarrassing I'm sorry that you had to see me like that You can either watch me drown Or try to save me while I drag it down Well, I want to fix it but I don't know how It isn't fair to make you wait around While all your friends are going out So Jesus, can you help me now Trade me in, I'll get a briar crown Is there anybody coming back for me If they ever were, they are not now So what's there left to talk about Because I'm holding on Just like a scratch off ticket I'll dig my nails into your skin Honey, I'm not stupid I know no one wins this kind of thing It's just another way to kill an hour Wishing I was different Nobody deserves a second chance But honey, I keep getting them