Joyner Lucas - Forever lyrics

[Intro] Yo I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually You will eventually Some day One day [Refrain] I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me I hope you understand I love you more than life itself And this is nothing but your daddy’s thoughts when he was feeling empty [Verse 1] And everything ain’t always what it seems like on the outside I fought so many tears so that you would never see the outcry I never wanted kids until I lived and went through hard times And became a man that fell in love with someone that my heart finds But you know how that sh** go Young and reckless, different women part time And I wasn’t ready for that life yet, I was in my dark prime Me and your moms ain’t get along and she gave me a hard time I really think that we just crossed paths at the wrong time I wasn’t happy when she said she was pregnant Probably the worst news of my life, that sh** was so depressing I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it I’m sorry that I said that sh**, yo I was tripping [Refrain] I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me I’m sorry, yo [Verse 2] And I never wanted a broken home to raise you from a distance Yeah I’ll admit it, I was scared of that type of commitment Even hopes of a miscarriage, anything bad that could happen That’d get me out of that situation, I was livid I felt like sh** about my thoughts, that wasn’t me, I’m different Plus I was dealing with some demons that I couldn’t live with I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it [Refrain] I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me Hope you don’t hate me, I was selfish, I hope you forgive me Hope you forgive me [Verse 3] And I still remember your baby shower like it was yesterday And to your mom it was special, me, just another day I wish that you could see the pictures, all the fake phony smiling Had to pretend that I was happy, deep down I was crying Ma asked if I was okay, I turned around and looked away I was drying all my tears, look back to say yeah I was lying, goddamn, how the hell I get here? This is it, this supposed to be my life This ain’t how I pictured it I never felt so damn alone, but it was more than often One of the worst days of my life, and I ain’t even lying We argued when we came home, I blame myself for all this I think that I was holding a grudge ’cause she ain’t get an abortion I’m sorry Damn [Refrain] And I know you can’t understand my words but you will eventually And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me I can’t believe I tried to hurt you, I hope you forgive me Please, please [Verse 4] And everything ain’t always what it seems like on the outside I fight so many tears so that you would never see the outcry I sacrifice my life so you could live it Peace, want to give you things my father couldn’t give to, me I think I was raised wrong, and that’s just what it is to me And if you ask him then his a** gon’ probably disagree But whatever, whatever And nothing’s ever made me cry as much as you, I swear Your smile gives me motivation and some new ideas My worst fear is always you not knowing who I am ‘Cause I been on the road dreamchasing for you out here I was the first thing that you opened your eyes to And the last one that you said goodnight I went home and cried to And I bawled my eyes out, and then watched you Glad I got you, that’s a blatant fact And every negative thing I said I swear I take it back [Refrain] I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me I hope you understand I love you more than I love myself And this is nothing but your daddy’s thoughts when he was feeling empty [Outro] I was feeling empty I been feeling empty I put my emotions in this music when I’m feeling empty I hope you forgive me Please, please