Joyner Lucas - I'm Sorry (Joyner Lucas Remix) lyrics

Don't wanna live to see another day I never know what to say All I do is get asked questions about my depression Most get the impression that I'm weak Everyday I feel like I've reached my peak, so to speak I never b**hed about it, I never wanted attention I never acted like I was in another dimension I always knew the repercussions of my extentions My Ma would always say, "How could you be so selfish?" Is it not selfish to make me stay here by myself? Is it not selfish to make me stay here in this living hell? I need extra love, and that ain't even enough Someone please fill this empty void inside of me, please! Someone provide for me, or even guide me to steps of being happy, because right now 24/7 I'm feeling crappy I've tried everything, nothing works, when I don't show up they a**ume I'm idle. I wish I was just idle, but instead I'm thinking about putting a bullet in the side of my head Sometimes I lay here and cry for in bed wishing all these sh**ty emotions could just be shed like skin Maybe soon I'll build up enough courage to commit this sin Maybe soon I'll snap out of it, if I don't I guess I'll just put a gap In the side of my sh** Insert the bullet right through my brain, I really hope I gain everything I've been dreaming about I just wanna get out of this rut, seems impossible Hasn't seemed plausible since the day I was five What is d**h? I wonder what it's like. I wonder if everyone ponders that from the day they're a tyke I finally feel it, I finally feel the courage coursing through my veins to just pick up that gun and blow my brains I can finally get rid of this pain, I go and grab the gun, pick it up off the ground, put it to my head, then look all around Make sure nobody sees me, don't want nobody to tease me f** man, this is it. All my pain will finally be relieved Maybe time will turn back to the day I was conceived *gunshot*