Josh Smith - Heather lyrics

[Intro: Josh Smith] Heather, you know who you are... This one's for you [Verse 1: Josh Smith] Jeans, sweatshirt, with no makeup on People looking at her funny, they don't know what's wrong Just a teen, but she's seen some stuff you won't believe Being molested by her coach while on a soccer team Struggling to recover but that the least of her worries See there's a story no one's heard of and it such a burden to her She's hurting, put into Child Protective Services When her mom had squeezed her neck and dropped her hard on the floor again With the whole family watching, they ain't do nothing Acting like she's fine at school, but, yo, she tired of frontin' Self-esteem dwindling, belittling Not feeling confident because her life ain't what it should've been And the worst of it is that that ain't the worst of it, yet Self-examination found a lump inside of her chest She's schizophrenic, she's feeling manic, she starts to panic It's like the world is just closing in A leaf detached from a tree, she's blowing in the wind In remission, but scared that cancer's coming back again Thinking about suicide, like her friend that actually did It's just too much that she don't deserve, she wanted it to end But Lord why? The girl is only sixteen Worried that she'll never get to follow her dreams Little sister stuck at home, but she's more like a daughter Can't stay with her crack head mother and her nonexistent father Yeah, life falling apart She picking the pieces up and hoping for a new start It's dark, she's so scared of being all alone She's calling and waiting patiently for somebody to answer the phone But when they do, she just gets put on hold God bless her poor breaking, aching, and shaken soul Don't wanna go home, so she stays late at school Step into the size nines of Ms. Heather Nicole, let's go [Verse 2: JP Silva] Listen, I know how you feel Dark empty mysterious still Delirious to the point of oblivion I could only imagine your opinion Of your mom Cuz I definitely had mine And maybe we learn to forgive in time But I feel the pain that you go through You look for comfort as pain controls you You struggled to breathe when you're by yourself Then when you with other n***as you somebody else You put on a mask and hope that it last Cuz you look at the past and saw how fast it went by You think you're okay as long as you believe in yourself Till you realized you gave up a long time ago and put the book back on the shelf You can't believe how you kept on just going Constant pain constantly flowing You tears become blood as your sorrow starts showing You sicken and bleaken as your pain is growing Till you just have enough and your anger starts blowing Staring at your room on that dark empty bed Thinking everything he said You cry and plead for God to help You crumpled and bent down and knelt Prayed for forgiveness and that out of goodness he'd spare you But he didn't answer and just stared at you But you're still standing Heather I'm still standing and we can do it together It don't matter if it rain, let it rain Like Eminem he said the wetter the better So please I'm not gonna show signs of slowing down I'ma be exposing and showing the world what I've become Cuz if there's anyone to blow my parents will be one I love you Heather hold it together Cuz Birdie and I are gonna need you forever [Verse 3: Josh Smith] Yeah, I see you on the daily You got me feeling worried sick because your life is crazy But can you blame me? I'm just concerning for your safety Cuz it seems like your situation is getting deeper lately Hold up, I gotta slow it down It pisses me off how no one ever comes around You're crying for help, but no one ever hears a sound You just got me, JP and four / five more to hold you down Some of the stuff you come to me with simply blows my mind Like what you mean that you ain't got nowhere to sleep tonight? And what you mean telling me that you got kicked out the house? I wish you could come with me so I could shelter you But money's tight at home and it's like there's nothing I can do And then I see these dudes with money acting like a fool Like only if they knew what kind of life you're living through Would they still drop these stacks on clothes and all these things they're not gon' use? They probably would, cuz when you're towards the top You're just worried about some fresh kicks that you're tryna cop When people lost towards the bottom just tryna steady rock But they can't when the government's giving them that steady rock That's what happened to HEATHER, she's just part of the system Her daddy's gone, but it's hard for her to really miss him She's hoping for a better life, she's on both knees and wishing But it's the same thing everyday, repeat it, wash it, and rinse it HEATHER NICOLE,I want you to know this You know I love you like a brother, but I don't always show it And I see you grinding, shining, and I praise you for it Over the past couple of years, we've done a lot of growing I'm proud of you, I'll always be right by your side And you know I'll be there for you till the day I die Life can only get better, so no need to cry Wipe the tears up off your face and jump right up and touch the sky [Verse 4: JP Silva] Listen, I know how you feel Dark empty mysterious still Delirious to the point of oblivion I could only imagine your opinion Of your mom Cuz I definitely had mine And maybe we learn to forgive in time But I feel the pain that you go through You look for comfort as pain controls you You struggled to breathe when you're by yourself Then when you with other n***as you somebody else You put on a mask and hope that it last Cuz you look at the past and saw how fast it went by You think you're okay as long as you believe in yourself Till you realized you gave up a long time ago and put the book back on the shelf You can't believe how you kept on just going Constant pain constantly flowing You tears become blood as your sorrow starts showing You sicken and bleaken as your pain is growing Till you just have enough and your anger starts blowing Staring at your room on that dark empty bed Thinking everything he said You cry and plead for GOD to help You crumpled and bent down and knelt Prayed for forgiveness and that out of goodness he'd spare you But he didn't answer and just stared at you But you're still standing HEATHER I'm still standing and we can do it together It don't matter if it rain, let it rain Like EMINEM he said the wetter the better So please I'm not gonna show signs of slowing down I'ma be exposing and showing the world what I've become Cuz if there's anyone to blow my parents will be one I love you HEATHER hold it together Cuz BIRDIE and I are gonna need you forever