Josh Martinez - Abstract Art lyrics

I can't count how many times I've been the last one laughing But the joke is on me cos see I keep crashing My life is changing really weird beeing here and there on airplane flights And fighting long distance late nights Doing double duty to a girl I'd love to live for Thinking forever lasted a lot less long than I had planned on Immortal is love, life isn't just a nice portal we go leaping through I dig through dumpsters and rifle through the scraps My spirit is starving, I am sad I just wanted to walk my thoughts off and drink a cup of coffee It seems like I can't sleep anyway What am I doing here? My intentions spans a mans attention They pay me no mind for I'm the mother of invention They say an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure But I'm sure my intentions weren't pure In fact they acted so brazen That's what forced me to leave this safe haven And now I'm out in the storm having cut off my escape routes Slid through slow mud in a makeshift rainsuit I was soaking wet and dragged myself up from the bu*tom I was shocked by cupids rock, I chased him down until I caught him Grabbed the gimpy infant diaper rash he used to quiver quickly To load love and unload until I started to feel sickly I was head over high heels in love with my wheels in my girlie The road came calling but she left early Now I'm falling into early thought I can't stop thinking I just hope I don't get caught So I broke it off, because I break everything Fall out of love is an abstract art I know I don't support your dreams But I don't mean to be so selfish I'm just overwhelmed by currents of a**urance Still I'm helpless and hoping Someone else will help this coping To be open is an art form, I'm feeling closed in Mostly a part from where we came from is part of whos to blame There really nothing nobody can do to ease this pain I'm feeling freezed in rain drops spread across the roof tops I'm hiding undercover until the truth stops leaking With loose lips peaking, gossip starts speaking in toungues There's not a decent soul among them young ones Who just gathered in rapture to pay hommage To the capture of the master Lovers on display We made ship to shore communication You are my first true love but I've lost patience With the endless way we let inpendence way of tendency To say I need more space, so please go away Later on the change is on the other side, let it slide Better be hiding the good vibe that I am feeling When not stealing light from your likeness but Like it or not, you let the first shot go And invited the first thoughts of might we be so tired As to be beyond the first aid our state required You can't bandage neglected efforts or put band aids on baskets No longer filled with love and now employed as caskets Yes the love is dead, no the love remains Nothing sings the soul as much of what the whole contains When dumped down on this ground below Spread slow at first then emerced the town in it's undertow We can't grow in salt water cried the pretty girls Neither can the flowers bloom When you in tune your rose pedals in contract with those have settled in their ways They layed down their arms and gave up thier glory days Shortly before I walk out this door I take one last look back because I am not sure I've been a B minus boyfriend whos character was doubted Who in every fight we had raised my voice and shouted Better when I didn't have to say a single thing at all But if I strive to keep my silence it will be a lonely fall But if I speak up now and raise my voice above the crowd noise She'll only hear me hollering, she won't feel my footsteps That follow in the shoes that breakdance and exude balance See a real amazing girl with an endless list of talents That's why I'm challenging myself to grow up and spread out If it's meant to be it's meant to be gently Left alone to work itself out...